Beautiful

Dear Diary,

Hey everybody!! I'm back... Did you miss me? Probably not.

As promised, here's your special inside scoop at practice:

I'm in a group for the talent show and the group is called Repeat. It is made out of W, Dude, and I, and possibly Pierce and Dallas depending on what happens.

Since we aren't fully joined yet, it was just Dude, W, and I on Sunday at W's house. We had two hours to practice low and behold (I totally saw this coming) we were distracted.

The first hour contained awkward moments (not mine, W and Dude's), fishy fights, calling to be saved (that was just me to Droplet, W's sweet, lil' sis), dances alone (also just me), random conversations, belt whips, secret love, annoyance, yelling, and laziness.

After that miserable hour of W and Dude destruction (ok, maybe me a little, but I was the most serious), I threatened to leave (I could have left in the first place, my house is a bike ride away).

Apparently, that was somehow important to W and she yelled at Dude to start playing his, in i-quote, "Guitar thingy. Yeah, she's not the best in grammer...

So then we finally practiced, and I left really sad (W, if you were wondering why I got out so quickly) and as I said, a bike ride, and my heart ached leaving.

If they were gonna treat this as some sorta joke and sit there, it's not worth my time and nervousness.

If I wanted to dance, I coulda' joined the Divas but I made my desicion with W. and if she's just not gonna use it, I guess Repeat won't have a dancer...

And then there's W's email blog, and today's made me feel absolutely horrible; as if everything she types is pointed directly at me!

So then I remembered one of my favorite songs...

It is called Beautiful by Christina Aguilara and it reminds how I can't let things like that push me down, even when I am weak. The song shows how we might not be beautiful on the outside like me, but the inside is God's own marvelous creation.

When you call yourself ugly, you are calling God the same for we are made in God's image and nothing can change that, especially imperfect you.

... Remember yesterday's? How I told you to make a move? My heart now feels it is somewhat connected.

I've seen a quote that said, "You cannot change a person, but the things you do can change them."

So take a stand! Make a wave, like in that weird friends for change song!! You could be that little pebble that causes a wave bigger than the world!

Do it; I dare you.

Make a wave and remember:

You are beautiful, no matter what they say. Words can't bring you down... No... You are beautiful, in every single way... So don't let anyone, bring you down today...

I just wanted to remind you that you can make a difference! Sometimes, you just need to try!!

Thanks to the support I got, my most favorite blog is staying alive!!!!!

Oh, and LG? I did smile! Whenever I'm around you, the sun shines a little brighter and you make me feel beautiful, even when I think not!!

Popularity doesn't matter to me any more.

Which means I am free to say that I have a secret Pokémon obsession, just like 4th grade, except a ton bigger now!!

For my next b-day, Pokémon stuff, please!!

Thanks, everyone, for playing a big roll in my life! You made me, me!!

I love you all, and Happy V-Day!!! <3


Yours Forever and Ever,

*•The Real Me•*


"Sometimes you need to runaway; just to see who will follow you."