Why?

Dear Diary,

I have no excuse. I'm only writing this post, because the one reason I created this blog was for my own personal outlet. Mostly emotional because with the friends I have, there's ALWAYS drama.

For about an hour, I've been sitting in my room with the lights off, door locked, music playing, and me crying in my pillow. Hard.

I'm sick and tired of all my friend drama!!!!!

Sometimes I wonder if I even have those people as friends!!!!

The friends that I'm really loyal to are Hail, Perfectionist, and Uncle A. Sometimes I include LG and Nel, but sometimes I just can't. They just don't take me seriously, and probbably never will when they're in their happy, random ice cream/puppy dog mood.

And sometimes I have all these why questions that I need solved. Here comes my emotional stuff...

Why can't I be popular?

Why can't my friends go one hundred years without drama?

Why can't the world be absolutely perfect?

Why do my friends hurt me and scar me deep?

Why are Nel and LG random?

Why do I like the person I like?

Why did I have to be born?

Why am I where I am?

Why did W tell me last? Does she not trust me enough as much as she does Amy?

Why can't I be perfect?

Why am I crying?

Why can't I have a love life like W?

Why am I not pretty?

Why can't I be the geek I am at home at school?

Why does Playa hate me?

Why is Ann annoying?

Why do my parents yell at me?

Why at times does it seem that the only things that love me are God and my dog?

Why are boys so strange?

Why is my life so hard?

Why can't I be normal?


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So you get my point. I promise you I'm crying right now, and hating my life...

Why, why, why?

... I... I'm actually taking a break from my online diary... A long break...

I'm sorry... I hope you can forgive me when I come back, if I ever do...

Good bye the people who even care to read my life.

Why, why, why,

*•The Secret Source•*
"Why?"


Actually Posted At:

7:18 PM on Wednesday, February 8, 2012