Beautiful

Dear Diary,

Hey everybody!! I'm back... Did you miss me? Probably not.

As promised, here's your special inside scoop at practice:

I'm in a group for the talent show and the group is called Repeat. It is made out of W, Dude, and I, and possibly Pierce and Dallas depending on what happens.

Since we aren't fully joined yet, it was just Dude, W, and I on Sunday at W's house. We had two hours to practice low and behold (I totally saw this coming) we were distracted.

The first hour contained awkward moments (not mine, W and Dude's), fishy fights, calling to be saved (that was just me to Droplet, W's sweet, lil' sis), dances alone (also just me), random conversations, belt whips, secret love, annoyance, yelling, and laziness.

After that miserable hour of W and Dude destruction (ok, maybe me a little, but I was the most serious), I threatened to leave (I could have left in the first place, my house is a bike ride away).

Apparently, that was somehow important to W and she yelled at Dude to start playing his, in i-quote, "Guitar thingy. Yeah, she's not the best in grammer...

So then we finally practiced, and I left really sad (W, if you were wondering why I got out so quickly) and as I said, a bike ride, and my heart ached leaving.

If they were gonna treat this as some sorta joke and sit there, it's not worth my time and nervousness.

If I wanted to dance, I coulda' joined the Divas but I made my desicion with W. and if she's just not gonna use it, I guess Repeat won't have a dancer...

And then there's W's email blog, and today's made me feel absolutely horrible; as if everything she types is pointed directly at me!

So then I remembered one of my favorite songs...

It is called Beautiful by Christina Aguilara and it reminds how I can't let things like that push me down, even when I am weak. The song shows how we might not be beautiful on the outside like me, but the inside is God's own marvelous creation.

When you call yourself ugly, you are calling God the same for we are made in God's image and nothing can change that, especially imperfect you.

... Remember yesterday's? How I told you to make a move? My heart now feels it is somewhat connected.

I've seen a quote that said, "You cannot change a person, but the things you do can change them."

So take a stand! Make a wave, like in that weird friends for change song!! You could be that little pebble that causes a wave bigger than the world!

Do it; I dare you.

Make a wave and remember:

You are beautiful, no matter what they say. Words can't bring you down... No... You are beautiful, in every single way... So don't let anyone, bring you down today...

I just wanted to remind you that you can make a difference! Sometimes, you just need to try!!

Thanks to the support I got, my most favorite blog is staying alive!!!!!

Oh, and LG? I did smile! Whenever I'm around you, the sun shines a little brighter and you make me feel beautiful, even when I think not!!

Popularity doesn't matter to me any more.

Which means I am free to say that I have a secret Pokémon obsession, just like 4th grade, except a ton bigger now!!

For my next b-day, Pokémon stuff, please!!

Thanks, everyone, for playing a big roll in my life! You made me, me!!

I love you all, and Happy V-Day!!! <3


Yours Forever and Ever,

*•The Real Me•*


"Sometimes you need to runaway; just to see who will follow you."

Dare You to Move

Dear Diary,

Ok, so I admit I've already done this through email, but I honest-to-goodnessly think no one even CARED about that email. Ok, maybe dear Kat, but nobody else besides her.

Look, I'm serious here. As serious as when I feel like an outsider with Dude and W (and that's dead serious!!) Btw, speaking of W and Dude, that's tomorrow's post.

Yeah, you heard me!

Sunny's off of her vacation!!!!!

Over the weekend, I realized that I can't stay inside my shell forever. Growing is changing and everybody needs change every once in a while. Also, life just wouldn't be right without Random Ramblings there, and EVERYBODY should know that!! I'm really sorry I let ya'll down. I guess I just let my emotions get the best of me.

As you've read from LG's latest post, Random Ramble... Is going to be demolished soon...

So this is where all my friends and fellow followers take a stand!!

I dare you to move! It's your job to make sure that doesn't happen! Comment and email! It needs to be done, and someone needs to do it.

This is something that needs to be done everday. From a simple compliment, to a long validation you could make someone's day just like that.

Please do what's needed and do it now!!!

Do it for me.

Yours,

*•The Secret Source•*
"Just do it."

"Add Your Name Here"-Itis

Dear Diary,

Today was a half day since it was the first of the month, as ya'll should know.

Today we had Schedule B so we had our last eh, 4 periods? So that means we had art!!!

Art is our last class (Perfectionist, Hail, Nel, LG, and I, I mean). As normal, Nel is painting on someone, Hail is WAY ahead, LG is talkin' bout something with Perfectionist, Perfectionist is laughing her guts out, and I'm sitting with Nel trying to catch up.

One day we were working on a ton of value (pretty much shading) and the way Perfectionist holds her pencil, she got a bunch of smeared pencil lead on that one side of her right hand for like, however long she was doing that project.

Nel, LG, and I (not Hail, like I said she barely talks) started calling it a horrible disease known as "Perfectionist-itis". And it stuck like that.

Two, three projects later, we had to use paint for a project needing black, white, the rainbow, and any colors in between. The first phase was the black and white, and the second was the rainbow colors.

So anyway, apparently Perfectionist said she hated the color pink, and Nel was in her "I'm exited enough to do stuff to you" mood and she was on phase two. I just happened to be on phase one, and Nel stole some white from my paint tray, mixing it with some of her red.

Voila! Pink.

Guess what happened next?

Yeh, Nel started painting Perfectionist.

Alas, the day the disease "Nellie-itis" was discovered!

Yeah. And that's a normal day in art!!

So whatever you seem to do, accident or on purpose, creates some sort of disease-itis.

*sigh* I love my friends.

Until the next art class,

*•The Secret Source•*
"Nel, stop painting me!!"


Actually Posted at 7:31 PM

LG

Dear Diary,

Hey. I miss LG and her amazing, out of control posts. Anyone else with me?

I mean, I'm not mad or anything, but I miss waiting for her crazy posts to appear a few minutes after mine...

The Austin & Ally's remind of her, too. I was gonna watch the new one tonight, but we got home late from a Bible study, and mum wouldn't let me. I bet'cha she watched it AND loved it!! I wish I know what happened...

Who knows where our beloved LG went...

This incredibly short post is dedicated to LG, who I hope reads this and assures me she didn't die and didn't get wiped off the face of the earth.

(Hey! Her words not mine!!)

See ya'll tomorrow before first period!

She who doesn't want to go to school tomorrow,

*•The Secret Source•*
"Missing LG..."


Actually posted at: 9:08 PM

Sicknesses, Friend Fusses, and dead lizards

Dear Diary,

Today I woke up and learned I got sick. Probably a collection and mixture of my friends'. My nose is super stuffy, I keep coughing, and I have a sore throat... It really stinks.

And then I still have this weird feeling on my hand...

So I was going through the junk we have at home for this organization called Jump 'n Jax where you bring stuff that you don't want and you bring it to this place where other people can buy it if they want. Its sorta like Goodwill, but more expensive and you get your stuff back if no one buys it.

Anyways, I was going through this huge cardboard box with a bunch a tossed stuff in it that was in the den/exercise room/library. I finally got to the bottom of it, and I wasn't really looking at it much. And then I pulled out something that I had no idea what it was. It was a skeleton of a dead lizard!!!

I repeat: A DEAD LIZARD SKELETON!!!!!!!!!

So I did what a normal person would do. I screamed and threw it across the room. Normal, right?

It was gross, and I kept panicking for like, three hours. It was GROSS!!

Save me.

But luckily, after yesterday's incident with Kat and W, I got to spend about an hour with W. I guess it's k, but that's what I thought last time when she was with Amester... "Artwork" is still echoing in my ears...

Sometimes I wonder if I'm like that to V Perfectionist. I gotta be more careful about that...

Speaking of being careful, LG you better watch what you say, woman!!!!! Jeez, my head hurts from yelling today...

I need rest!!! Too many thoughts hurt my brain.

Catcha' lata,


*•The Secret Source•*
"Shhh!!!"