Dear Diary,
OM DOUBLE GOODY GOODNESS!!!
So yesterday I went to the optometrist (fancy word for eye doctor) and tried to get contacts. After 30 minutes of trying, I finally got a contact in my eye! (well, other people put it in my eye) Then the nice lady Laura taught me how to get them out and I put them back in!!
But sucks for me since later that night I tried to take them out but my left contact refused to release. I feel like such a fail cause then my mom tried to take it out then told me I didn't even have one in my left eye!!
Fooey
So an hour wasted on trying to get a contact that wasn't even there...
Double Fooey
My conclusion is that I did get it out, but it fell and I didn't know. My eye was already irritated and hurt so I couldn't tell if I had one in there or not.
So now at 6:00 PM I tried again after taking a shower to put them in. Discouraged by yesterday's fiasco, I honestly thought this would be a second fail.
Triple fooey.
But...
I. AM. VICTORIOUS!!!!!
The right went in after like, 3 tries and Mr. Lefty gave in on 5!!
I'm so happy... Happy dance!!!
Now...
Getting them out will be another issue...
Quadruple fooey...
Oh well! Gotta live in the moment!! :))
STILL VICTORIOUS(!!!!!),
M
Wednesday, August 29, 2012
Tuesday, August 7, 2012
When Change Comes By
Dear Diary,
Life isn't exactly going my way right now. My best friend Ash just moved to Texas and now my other best friend since kinder that was always .1 miles away, a 31 second drive, is moving away. I know change is always hard, but to me this can be totally unbearable. Yes, I have Ash and W still with me, along with LG, Hales, Abs, and the rest of the gang, but Ash and W always were the closest to me.
Ash lives in Bartram Springs, a 10-15 minute drive away, and I totally memorized where her house is. W and I have been telling people we live in the same neighborhood and have the exact same house format except backwards since forever. Now what?
I really can't get why Ms. Dropwal wants to move. Maybe it's because I've been a bad influence and she doesn't want me close to her daughter. Now that I think about it, I really am not a nice person. At least, not lately. This year I haven't been very happy-go-lucky. M hasn't been a very good friend to y'all, and I'm really sorry... :'( I really hope 7th grade will be different. Life has been rough, and maybe this-all of this-is a good thing.
I guess I'll just push my hair back and watch God's plan in action. I've been praying that things would go His way, and maybe it is. Sure, change is difficult and stressing, but it has its hopes. I admit that my tears will fall and life feels like it's O.V.E.R. over, but maybe it's just better. I can't explain it, but yeah.
Change is good, and I can only hope I'll pull through and be strong for my friends. Since that is probably the best I can do. God's plan is unfolding in front of us and we need to keep faith.
Oh, hey, LG. I know you're reading this and I want'cha to know I miss our long rambunctious emails along with our crazy out of the head conversations. How's life?
Funny how the song 'Steady My Heart' decides to come on now... It's by Kari Jobe for those who don't know what song this is.
Change is Good, even if it hurts,
M
Mood: changing
Life isn't exactly going my way right now. My best friend Ash just moved to Texas and now my other best friend since kinder that was always .1 miles away, a 31 second drive, is moving away. I know change is always hard, but to me this can be totally unbearable. Yes, I have Ash and W still with me, along with LG, Hales, Abs, and the rest of the gang, but Ash and W always were the closest to me.
Ash lives in Bartram Springs, a 10-15 minute drive away, and I totally memorized where her house is. W and I have been telling people we live in the same neighborhood and have the exact same house format except backwards since forever. Now what?
I really can't get why Ms. Dropwal wants to move. Maybe it's because I've been a bad influence and she doesn't want me close to her daughter. Now that I think about it, I really am not a nice person. At least, not lately. This year I haven't been very happy-go-lucky. M hasn't been a very good friend to y'all, and I'm really sorry... :'( I really hope 7th grade will be different. Life has been rough, and maybe this-all of this-is a good thing.
I guess I'll just push my hair back and watch God's plan in action. I've been praying that things would go His way, and maybe it is. Sure, change is difficult and stressing, but it has its hopes. I admit that my tears will fall and life feels like it's O.V.E.R. over, but maybe it's just better. I can't explain it, but yeah.
Change is good, and I can only hope I'll pull through and be strong for my friends. Since that is probably the best I can do. God's plan is unfolding in front of us and we need to keep faith.
Oh, hey, LG. I know you're reading this and I want'cha to know I miss our long rambunctious emails along with our crazy out of the head conversations. How's life?
Funny how the song 'Steady My Heart' decides to come on now... It's by Kari Jobe for those who don't know what song this is.
Change is Good, even if it hurts,
M
Mood: changing
Friday, August 3, 2012
OAB Day 5 - Day in the Middle of the Sea
Dear Diary,
I have an ANNOYING, AGGRAVATING, ANN OF A LITTLE SISTER!!!
Kk, all better!! Just had to get that out.
Today was an average everyday awesome of a day. Woke up at 9:30 and totally spent my time getting dressed into a casual, yet classy outfit of a pink ruffle skirt that goes half-way on my thighs. Then I added a regular white tank top (from Target, you can tell by the little sparkles at the top) tht I tucked into the skirt which was at waist length. I love that outfit because it's so in style and the pink is a flattering day color.
Ann's a grumpy kitten right now because after lunch my parents and I (I seemed so angelic on this vacation compared to her...) took a long nap and she didn't. Everybody knows Ann gets super grumpy and annoying and disobedient and impatient and selfish when she's tired (not that I'm any better, but...). Ann is still a little up there, but yeah...
After waking up this morning she was good when we went to the library to play board games. This family had a really fun time playing Pictionary, that later turned into Actionary. Ann and I teamed up and our parents teamed up. Mum and I were always the first to guess things right normally. I honestly thought Ann and I made it too easy for them, but what can you do?
After we went to have lunch and I enjoyed yet another COLD FRUIT SOUP!! That I will totally miss when we're back at Jaxville... This time it was orange, and for the main I had a tuna sandwich that was decent. Then a chocolate sundae and we went back to the room for a siesta.
I played Nel's DS Lite, then we started to pack. :(
Now at dinner (where I normally write this junk I'm surprised some people read) where I'm eating Ann's fruit cocktail since she didn't want it. I RLLY WANT MY BREAD, THGH!! Dinner is meatloaf.
Outfit of the Day: an amazing shade of lite blue combined with a sleeveless dress coming to mid-thigh length. Its covered in sequins and below the breast line is a blue ribbon with a blue flower. (pic below) My hair is in a side ponytail on my right covering my ear. It's tied with a silver flower and I have a similar shade of blue as the dress in earrings.
More later, wanna play with the pencil pouch Ash gave me...
*•*•*
Ooppie... Feel bad cuz just spilled my orange soda all over the table...
Then I held up this weird shaped honey dew and I was all like, "It looks like a boat! Choo choo... Wait!"
Yeh... I'm a Cat (ruff ruff!! ... Wait - )
More later, kk?
*•*•
Sunset was supes pretty!! It was really cloudy but just before it disappeared at the horizon it was an amazing shade of red and pink. Dad got some really nice pics (i know 4 a fact they'll be on FB) and yeh.
Now with Ann waiting for a show to start in the Normandy Theatre on floor 9. Idk what it's about, but I hope it's comedy. I laugh too easily.
Still have to get a pic of my dress, making Ann remind me. It is a really pretty dress that I really thank Mum for. Originally $60, Mum found it at the sale rack in Kohl's for $6!! Sweet...
The Normandy Theatre is really pretty... With the lights and the sparkly curtain it definitely shouts party. Speaking of...
The one last night totally rocked!! No wonder Carnival is called the party boat. Next year I really want someone and their family to come with me on another Carnival cruise. Maybe W and her family since they tend to cruise tons. I can already see it... Ms.Dropwal and my parents could sit around or go to a show. W and I would go to the Lito Deck and dance, and Ann and May would be in the room talking, playing, watching, or trading Pokémon.
Show's bout to start. Blogya later!!
*•*•*
I love watching people dance... This time it was country and the dancer people "8 More Seconds" were amazing. I love the costumes and the way that they really flow. It was cool.
Back in the room and finally got pic of dress. The worker people made us an amazing towel heart. I really feel gratitude to the people who work here. They work really really hard around the clock.
There is one main chef with 19 oter chefs that have to make almost 10,000 meals a day. The waitors have to work through breakfast, lunch, and dinner serving 14,000 people on this SMALL boat. Each serves about 30-60 people. They calculated that's about a plate every half a second. Then every time someone leaves they have only a midst of 10 minutes to get a whole table ready again.
The people who do house keeping work hard to get you everything you need and they even clean up after you.
Each person working on a cruise ship must take on a 6 month contract with barely any breaks and even have to pay for their air fare to get where the ship is.
Life is tough for them, and I really appreciate how hard they work. Most are Asian and Filippino so you sorta feel one with the people your culture, you know?
Next time you go on vacation on a cruise remember to think about how hard these people work as you feel vacation.
Kk, enough with the squishy stuff for now!! Leaving tomorrow...
And that wraps up Dear Diary's latest issue of OAB, where I hope you enjoyed my whereabouts in Mexico!
Until next time,
M2
I have an ANNOYING, AGGRAVATING, ANN OF A LITTLE SISTER!!!
Kk, all better!! Just had to get that out.
Today was an average everyday awesome of a day. Woke up at 9:30 and totally spent my time getting dressed into a casual, yet classy outfit of a pink ruffle skirt that goes half-way on my thighs. Then I added a regular white tank top (from Target, you can tell by the little sparkles at the top) tht I tucked into the skirt which was at waist length. I love that outfit because it's so in style and the pink is a flattering day color.
Ann's a grumpy kitten right now because after lunch my parents and I (I seemed so angelic on this vacation compared to her...) took a long nap and she didn't. Everybody knows Ann gets super grumpy and annoying and disobedient and impatient and selfish when she's tired (not that I'm any better, but...). Ann is still a little up there, but yeah...
After waking up this morning she was good when we went to the library to play board games. This family had a really fun time playing Pictionary, that later turned into Actionary. Ann and I teamed up and our parents teamed up. Mum and I were always the first to guess things right normally. I honestly thought Ann and I made it too easy for them, but what can you do?
After we went to have lunch and I enjoyed yet another COLD FRUIT SOUP!! That I will totally miss when we're back at Jaxville... This time it was orange, and for the main I had a tuna sandwich that was decent. Then a chocolate sundae and we went back to the room for a siesta.
I played Nel's DS Lite, then we started to pack. :(
Now at dinner (where I normally write this junk I'm surprised some people read) where I'm eating Ann's fruit cocktail since she didn't want it. I RLLY WANT MY BREAD, THGH!! Dinner is meatloaf.
Outfit of the Day: an amazing shade of lite blue combined with a sleeveless dress coming to mid-thigh length. Its covered in sequins and below the breast line is a blue ribbon with a blue flower. (pic below) My hair is in a side ponytail on my right covering my ear. It's tied with a silver flower and I have a similar shade of blue as the dress in earrings.
More later, wanna play with the pencil pouch Ash gave me...
*•*•*
Ooppie... Feel bad cuz just spilled my orange soda all over the table...
Then I held up this weird shaped honey dew and I was all like, "It looks like a boat! Choo choo... Wait!"
Yeh... I'm a Cat (ruff ruff!! ... Wait - )
More later, kk?
*•*•
Sunset was supes pretty!! It was really cloudy but just before it disappeared at the horizon it was an amazing shade of red and pink. Dad got some really nice pics (i know 4 a fact they'll be on FB) and yeh.
Now with Ann waiting for a show to start in the Normandy Theatre on floor 9. Idk what it's about, but I hope it's comedy. I laugh too easily.
Still have to get a pic of my dress, making Ann remind me. It is a really pretty dress that I really thank Mum for. Originally $60, Mum found it at the sale rack in Kohl's for $6!! Sweet...
The Normandy Theatre is really pretty... With the lights and the sparkly curtain it definitely shouts party. Speaking of...
The one last night totally rocked!! No wonder Carnival is called the party boat. Next year I really want someone and their family to come with me on another Carnival cruise. Maybe W and her family since they tend to cruise tons. I can already see it... Ms.Dropwal and my parents could sit around or go to a show. W and I would go to the Lito Deck and dance, and Ann and May would be in the room talking, playing, watching, or trading Pokémon.
Show's bout to start. Blogya later!!
*•*•*
I love watching people dance... This time it was country and the dancer people "8 More Seconds" were amazing. I love the costumes and the way that they really flow. It was cool.
Back in the room and finally got pic of dress. The worker people made us an amazing towel heart. I really feel gratitude to the people who work here. They work really really hard around the clock.
There is one main chef with 19 oter chefs that have to make almost 10,000 meals a day. The waitors have to work through breakfast, lunch, and dinner serving 14,000 people on this SMALL boat. Each serves about 30-60 people. They calculated that's about a plate every half a second. Then every time someone leaves they have only a midst of 10 minutes to get a whole table ready again.
The people who do house keeping work hard to get you everything you need and they even clean up after you.
Each person working on a cruise ship must take on a 6 month contract with barely any breaks and even have to pay for their air fare to get where the ship is.
Life is tough for them, and I really appreciate how hard they work. Most are Asian and Filippino so you sorta feel one with the people your culture, you know?
Next time you go on vacation on a cruise remember to think about how hard these people work as you feel vacation.
Kk, enough with the squishy stuff for now!! Leaving tomorrow...
And that wraps up Dear Diary's latest issue of OAB, where I hope you enjoyed my whereabouts in Mexico!
Until next time,
M2
OAB Day 4 - Cozumel, Mexico and Little Miss Shopaholic (and Ms Party News)
Dear Diary,
THAT'S A DEAL!!!
About to board or something to go SWIM WITH DOLPHINS here in Cozumel and before this there was a little time to shop. The second store I found this wallet a lot like the one Nel owns for $5!!!! It's brown and blue and I actually recall learning how to make one... Pic down below if ya wanna see.
Woke up really late today from a scary nightmare (more morningmare) and it was about first a shot (medicine kind) then an evil sorcerer dude and half the time I wasn't even me... Really weird and forced myself to wake up.
Cozumel is really pretty and REALLY HOT!! Like, people, this is Philippine hot!! They even have the same trikes the Philippines has!! Its basically a bike with a 2 seater connected to it.
In a taxi on the way to Dolphinaris. That's the name of the dolphin place we're swimming at. I really wonder who came up with these names...
Dozens and dozens of people going to swim with dolphins, it's crazy! Idk how many dolphins there are, but I wonder if they have enough. Maybe about how many girls were at UCA camp?? If you would have seen maybe you'd agree...
Almost there, talk later.
•*•*•*
BEE!!!!!!!!
I just totally froze... Lunch after the amazing swim was great until these two giant BEES flew up into my face and I totally froze. It was especially embarrassing since there were "people" around. I was so scared that I close my eyes and didn't move. Finally Dad and Mum and our waitress started swatting them away. Dad thinks its because of the coconut scented sun screen I use, so I betcha I'm never using that in public again. Then a bee flew into my Dad's Coke. Later Ann called it "Boke." It was hilarious.
Oh, right! The dolphin swim...
I HAVE FULFILLED MY LIFE WISH!!! Swimming with a dolphin was beyond imaginable. My family and I were at station 6 at Dolphinaris. Our dolphin was a female named Bina and was super sweet. All in all 11 people shared Bina. We did this beyond amazing thing called a belly ride where they would turn over and you'd grab their fins. The dolphin would make sure you were on and start swimming at lightning speed. According to my parents when I rode Bina I was the fastest out of everyone, which made me happy.
Then we spent the remaining 3 hours on shore shopping. I know, I know, I'm a huge girly girl. But it was so worth it. Then I totally laughed out loud with shame when I saw a tee that said "I <3 Justin Bieber, Cozumel, Mexico." It was super cheesy and dumb. Pic down below!!
I got the wallet like you saw, and a postcard for my pen pal. Then I got this awesome bracelet that people weave on a bendable plastic weaved from yarn (example with pics). Later I got a keychain with my initials basically the same colors. I had a great deal with this pretty sky blue shoulder bag with white words saying Cozumel, Mexico. That was pretty cute and I walked by and totally stared at it.
I still couldn't find glass animals!! So infuriated... :'((
I finally settled with getting my friends keychains. Idk if they'll like it, but it's the thought that counts, right?
...
Right?
Bacon mac'n cheese (sounds horrible, right? actually pretty good...) for dinner and a cappuccino pie slice for dessert. See pics down below!!
All for now. A day at sea all tomorrow!!!
Luv&Boke,
M2
*•*after M thought it was over*•*
BEST DAY EVA!! Went to the pool area and watched from the top where most guests had a HUGE party!! This lady called "Island Girl" (who knows what her real name is) is a huge motivator and had almost everyone pumped up. After 2 dances they had the longest conga line I've ever seen and I really didn't feel like joining in, but my parents and I (Ann was in the room sleeping) agreed that if Nel or W or any of my greatest BF's were with me I would be raising the roof!!
Dad pointed out this one dude who was shirtless and holding a beer. It was obvious the dude was wayy drunk, and I really shouldn't be saying this but he was hilarious to watch!! After the conga everyone formed this huge circle and one of the staff had to lead him to the side since he was standing almost mid-way looking around confused.
When the circle was formed one guy on staff started to break dance and got other people into it. This cute kid (no comment...) my age went out there and started actually doing hip hop and lost his shoe in the process. A little girl maybe 5 years old wearing pink went out there and started running around and criss-crossing. It was so cute. Finally this family pushed their son out and he was maybe 8-9 and a little on the chubby side wearing a yellow shirt. He was AMAZING!! I'd never seen anything like it!! He didn't do any serious head spins or floor moves like the kid my age, but this guy had serious style. At first I thought his family just wanted to embarrass him, but he suddenly started doing all these hand motions I never thought a kid could do!! Phenomenal (yes, yes, big word)...
So yup. Now I'm officially done.
Party over!!
THAT'S A DEAL!!!
About to board or something to go SWIM WITH DOLPHINS here in Cozumel and before this there was a little time to shop. The second store I found this wallet a lot like the one Nel owns for $5!!!! It's brown and blue and I actually recall learning how to make one... Pic down below if ya wanna see.
Woke up really late today from a scary nightmare (more morningmare) and it was about first a shot (medicine kind) then an evil sorcerer dude and half the time I wasn't even me... Really weird and forced myself to wake up.
Cozumel is really pretty and REALLY HOT!! Like, people, this is Philippine hot!! They even have the same trikes the Philippines has!! Its basically a bike with a 2 seater connected to it.
In a taxi on the way to Dolphinaris. That's the name of the dolphin place we're swimming at. I really wonder who came up with these names...
Dozens and dozens of people going to swim with dolphins, it's crazy! Idk how many dolphins there are, but I wonder if they have enough. Maybe about how many girls were at UCA camp?? If you would have seen maybe you'd agree...
Almost there, talk later.
•*•*•*
BEE!!!!!!!!
I just totally froze... Lunch after the amazing swim was great until these two giant BEES flew up into my face and I totally froze. It was especially embarrassing since there were "people" around. I was so scared that I close my eyes and didn't move. Finally Dad and Mum and our waitress started swatting them away. Dad thinks its because of the coconut scented sun screen I use, so I betcha I'm never using that in public again. Then a bee flew into my Dad's Coke. Later Ann called it "Boke." It was hilarious.
Oh, right! The dolphin swim...
I HAVE FULFILLED MY LIFE WISH!!! Swimming with a dolphin was beyond imaginable. My family and I were at station 6 at Dolphinaris. Our dolphin was a female named Bina and was super sweet. All in all 11 people shared Bina. We did this beyond amazing thing called a belly ride where they would turn over and you'd grab their fins. The dolphin would make sure you were on and start swimming at lightning speed. According to my parents when I rode Bina I was the fastest out of everyone, which made me happy.
Then we spent the remaining 3 hours on shore shopping. I know, I know, I'm a huge girly girl. But it was so worth it. Then I totally laughed out loud with shame when I saw a tee that said "I <3 Justin Bieber, Cozumel, Mexico." It was super cheesy and dumb. Pic down below!!
I got the wallet like you saw, and a postcard for my pen pal. Then I got this awesome bracelet that people weave on a bendable plastic weaved from yarn (example with pics). Later I got a keychain with my initials basically the same colors. I had a great deal with this pretty sky blue shoulder bag with white words saying Cozumel, Mexico. That was pretty cute and I walked by and totally stared at it.
I still couldn't find glass animals!! So infuriated... :'((
I finally settled with getting my friends keychains. Idk if they'll like it, but it's the thought that counts, right?
...
Right?
Bacon mac'n cheese (sounds horrible, right? actually pretty good...) for dinner and a cappuccino pie slice for dessert. See pics down below!!
All for now. A day at sea all tomorrow!!!
Luv&Boke,
M2
*•*after M thought it was over*•*
BEST DAY EVA!! Went to the pool area and watched from the top where most guests had a HUGE party!! This lady called "Island Girl" (who knows what her real name is) is a huge motivator and had almost everyone pumped up. After 2 dances they had the longest conga line I've ever seen and I really didn't feel like joining in, but my parents and I (Ann was in the room sleeping) agreed that if Nel or W or any of my greatest BF's were with me I would be raising the roof!!
Dad pointed out this one dude who was shirtless and holding a beer. It was obvious the dude was wayy drunk, and I really shouldn't be saying this but he was hilarious to watch!! After the conga everyone formed this huge circle and one of the staff had to lead him to the side since he was standing almost mid-way looking around confused.
When the circle was formed one guy on staff started to break dance and got other people into it. This cute kid (no comment...) my age went out there and started actually doing hip hop and lost his shoe in the process. A little girl maybe 5 years old wearing pink went out there and started running around and criss-crossing. It was so cute. Finally this family pushed their son out and he was maybe 8-9 and a little on the chubby side wearing a yellow shirt. He was AMAZING!! I'd never seen anything like it!! He didn't do any serious head spins or floor moves like the kid my age, but this guy had serious style. At first I thought his family just wanted to embarrass him, but he suddenly started doing all these hand motions I never thought a kid could do!! Phenomenal (yes, yes, big word)...
So yup. Now I'm officially done.
Party over!!
Monday, July 30, 2012
OAB Day 3 - Adventure on the Cayman Island
Dear Diary,
I JUST WALKED 30 (28, precise) FEET UNDERWATER IN THE OCEAN AND BREATHED!!!
Tell me how amazing that is... C'mon, tell me. Yes, tell me. Tell me that is crazy awesome... Yes, I know, breathtaking...
Currently at Grand Cayman where THEY HAVE WIFI!!!!
The beach here is really pretty and the thing where I was yelling up there is called Sea Trek. It's this amazing thing all around the US and else where you put on this helmet (yes, just a helmet), plunge into the sea, and literally walk underwater. I even say that little shrimp dude from Nemo!!
More detes later, have to leave this shack where I'm stealing wifi...
•*•*•
I luv shopping!! (if u didnt no that alrdy LG says im a big girly girl like that. Eh, what can you do...
Could not find glass animals for my BFF's!! So disappointed... :((
Maybs tomorrow....
IT IS RAINING SO HARD NOW!! Have to go on little boat to go to cruise boat since they decided not to dock. Boo them. Boo Mom too, she said we wouldn't need umbrellas!! :P
Luckily Dad packed two rain ponchos so Ann and I are only semi-wet.
On the way back to cruise ship, more detes when they come.
•*•*•
Naps are awesome, didja know that??
Dinner is less formal, but I'd take a pair of jeans over a strapless dress any day.
Outfit of the day: dark blue skinny jeans with a sleeveless dark blue top that I love because it compliments my skin tone and hair color. Then I have a long necklace with a butterfly (pic down below).
Anyway, today's menu is grilled chicken breast served over fettuccine, tossed in mushroom cream (eww, but Mom said it'd be kk), with freshly grated parmesan cheese (I know what you're thinking, I copied that off the menu. No, I did not come up with tht myself). For a starter I'm gonna get mango cream (I now have an addiction to cold fruit soups from yesterday) which is iced mango cream soup, spiced with fresh ginger. And I brought along my fav soda of Fanta orange (idk what I'd do if they didn't let us bring on
drinks...
Cayman Island was pretty sweet and it was thrilling to ride on a public bus and walk around because you know what the residents feel like. Mum got me two pairs of really cute earrings and she got a supes pretty $18 necklace with black and clear beads. Ann got a pretty dolphin glass (I think) figure for $3. Dad and Ann went to Grand Cayman to go to DQ... Shame..
We only went to Grand Cayman, for those of you wondering.
Tomorrow we'll be at Cozumel (don't ask me where that is) swimming with dolphins (YESSSHHH!! LIFE DREAM COMPLETE!!!)
Starter's here, talk later.
*•*•*
Kk, mango soup isn't so good... The fettuccine was decent, and for dessert I ordered tiramisu. Yummster...
Now some people are singing Happy Birthday... HAPPY BIRTHDAY PERSON I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHO'S BIRTHDAY IT IS!!! Happy happy birthday, may all your dreams come true...
It scared me at first...
OM DOUBLE G!!!! WAITERS NOW DANCING TO FUNK MUSIC IN MIDDLE OF FANCY RESTAURANT!!
Wow, that was hilarious... They just started playing music and dancing and some younger boys maybe Ann's age started dancing with them.
Lol, hilarious.
Now back in the room and just watched Lemonade Mouth for the 17TH TIME!!! It'll probs neva get old...
Time for a siesta... Cozumel tomorrow!! Until then...
When counting, don't forget 3!!
M2
I JUST WALKED 30 (28, precise) FEET UNDERWATER IN THE OCEAN AND BREATHED!!!
Tell me how amazing that is... C'mon, tell me. Yes, tell me. Tell me that is crazy awesome... Yes, I know, breathtaking...
Currently at Grand Cayman where THEY HAVE WIFI!!!!
The beach here is really pretty and the thing where I was yelling up there is called Sea Trek. It's this amazing thing all around the US and else where you put on this helmet (yes, just a helmet), plunge into the sea, and literally walk underwater. I even say that little shrimp dude from Nemo!!
More detes later, have to leave this shack where I'm stealing wifi...
•*•*•
I luv shopping!! (if u didnt no that alrdy LG says im a big girly girl like that. Eh, what can you do...
Could not find glass animals for my BFF's!! So disappointed... :((
Maybs tomorrow....
IT IS RAINING SO HARD NOW!! Have to go on little boat to go to cruise boat since they decided not to dock. Boo them. Boo Mom too, she said we wouldn't need umbrellas!! :P
Luckily Dad packed two rain ponchos so Ann and I are only semi-wet.
On the way back to cruise ship, more detes when they come.
•*•*•
Naps are awesome, didja know that??
Dinner is less formal, but I'd take a pair of jeans over a strapless dress any day.
Outfit of the day: dark blue skinny jeans with a sleeveless dark blue top that I love because it compliments my skin tone and hair color. Then I have a long necklace with a butterfly (pic down below).
Anyway, today's menu is grilled chicken breast served over fettuccine, tossed in mushroom cream (eww, but Mom said it'd be kk), with freshly grated parmesan cheese (I know what you're thinking, I copied that off the menu. No, I did not come up with tht myself). For a starter I'm gonna get mango cream (I now have an addiction to cold fruit soups from yesterday) which is iced mango cream soup, spiced with fresh ginger. And I brought along my fav soda of Fanta orange (idk what I'd do if they didn't let us bring on
drinks...
Cayman Island was pretty sweet and it was thrilling to ride on a public bus and walk around because you know what the residents feel like. Mum got me two pairs of really cute earrings and she got a supes pretty $18 necklace with black and clear beads. Ann got a pretty dolphin glass (I think) figure for $3. Dad and Ann went to Grand Cayman to go to DQ... Shame..
We only went to Grand Cayman, for those of you wondering.
Tomorrow we'll be at Cozumel (don't ask me where that is) swimming with dolphins (YESSSHHH!! LIFE DREAM COMPLETE!!!)
Starter's here, talk later.
*•*•*
Kk, mango soup isn't so good... The fettuccine was decent, and for dessert I ordered tiramisu. Yummster...
Now some people are singing Happy Birthday... HAPPY BIRTHDAY PERSON I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHO'S BIRTHDAY IT IS!!! Happy happy birthday, may all your dreams come true...
It scared me at first...
OM DOUBLE G!!!! WAITERS NOW DANCING TO FUNK MUSIC IN MIDDLE OF FANCY RESTAURANT!!
Wow, that was hilarious... They just started playing music and dancing and some younger boys maybe Ann's age started dancing with them.
Lol, hilarious.
Now back in the room and just watched Lemonade Mouth for the 17TH TIME!!! It'll probs neva get old...
Time for a siesta... Cozumel tomorrow!! Until then...
When counting, don't forget 3!!
M2
OAB Day 2 - Formal Night, Delish Dinner, and Annoying Ann
Dear Diary,
Ann's mood can ruin ALMOST everything!! She keeps crying and having an attitude. No one really knows whats wrong, but I can only wonder how bad it'll be when she has her period... Yike...
The second dinner night we have to dress super formal and here I am wearing this really pretty strapless pink dress with black designs running up it. Along with black heels and my hair withholding a little bow, I'm wearing a black necklace my mum let me borrow. (check email for pics)
Everything was sorta mellow today, but I was really sore this morning from cheer camp on Friday. Late soreness, my parents say.
More details after dinner...
See you then!
•*•* after dinner *•*•
STRAWBERRY BISQUE TASTES LIKE A STRAWBERRY SMOOTHIE IN A BOWL!!!
It was SOO good!! I was tempted to grab a straw and drink it... I had a prime rib for main, and it was good, minus the pile of fat I brought out (BLEAH). Dessert is this thing called Cherries Jubilee (I thought of a Pokémon City, course) which is vanilla ice cream doused in cherry syrup and cherries and all that yummy cherry stuff.
I love having out dinners with my family because we always laugh so hard its sorta like lunch with my BFF's.
Then we watched this show with dancers an singing and loudness. The dancers were amazing, and made me want to pursue dancing (yeh, like thts gnna hppn!). Then we got back to find a cute towel piggy.
Thank God for cameras, cuz here are pics of today's adventure!!
More tomorrow!!
No Poking Bread and Finish Your Meatloaf,
(inside family joke from cruise restaurant)
M2
Ann's mood can ruin ALMOST everything!! She keeps crying and having an attitude. No one really knows whats wrong, but I can only wonder how bad it'll be when she has her period... Yike...
The second dinner night we have to dress super formal and here I am wearing this really pretty strapless pink dress with black designs running up it. Along with black heels and my hair withholding a little bow, I'm wearing a black necklace my mum let me borrow. (check email for pics)
Everything was sorta mellow today, but I was really sore this morning from cheer camp on Friday. Late soreness, my parents say.
More details after dinner...
See you then!
•*•* after dinner *•*•
STRAWBERRY BISQUE TASTES LIKE A STRAWBERRY SMOOTHIE IN A BOWL!!!
It was SOO good!! I was tempted to grab a straw and drink it... I had a prime rib for main, and it was good, minus the pile of fat I brought out (BLEAH). Dessert is this thing called Cherries Jubilee (I thought of a Pokémon City, course) which is vanilla ice cream doused in cherry syrup and cherries and all that yummy cherry stuff.
I love having out dinners with my family because we always laugh so hard its sorta like lunch with my BFF's.
Then we watched this show with dancers an singing and loudness. The dancers were amazing, and made me want to pursue dancing (yeh, like thts gnna hppn!). Then we got back to find a cute towel piggy.
Thank God for cameras, cuz here are pics of today's adventure!!
More tomorrow!!
No Poking Bread and Finish Your Meatloaf,
(inside family joke from cruise restaurant)
M2
On A Boat Day 1 - Boredom before Boarding & The 16 Movie Time
Dear Diary,
BOREDOM!!!!!
One hour before the ship starts boarding and we're in Tampa at this restaurant called Wet Willies for a light snack and they have inappropriately named slushies here... Just sayin'...
So if you haven't noticed OAB stands for 'On a Boat', where is what I'll be in for 5 whole days!!
Posts may be a little late, but that's cuz there' barely any FREE wifi.
•*•*
I'm officially on a boat!!! Was totes lost at first, but I was finally the one with the map (im the map, im the map. Im the MAP!)
The drill was super boring and it was really funny, cuz there was this not completely sober dude named Tom and the girl who was giving directions, Kelly, totally called him out and it was hilarious.
For dinner I wore capri jeggings with a turquoise shirt that had a ruffle going down the middle. I took a left strand of hair and pinned it with a heart teal clip (I'll tell u wen its on FB).
It was so much fun (even wen we had 2 w8 30 minutes) bcuz we went 2 a sushi bar and had fun while Ann had a fit.
Dropping us off in our puny cabin without a window where Ann and I hav pull-out beds, our parents went to watch a show and Ann and I settled down on my bed. We got our DVD player and set it up on Ann's bed where it was diagonal to mine. We got all cozy and watched Lemonade Mouth (16th TIME!!).
Finally it was bed time and there I'm typing this. Sorry if this is late, again, barely any wifi in the middle of the sea, but I hope you enjoyed today's story of OAB 1!
Luv&Stuff,
M2
BOREDOM!!!!!
One hour before the ship starts boarding and we're in Tampa at this restaurant called Wet Willies for a light snack and they have inappropriately named slushies here... Just sayin'...
So if you haven't noticed OAB stands for 'On a Boat', where is what I'll be in for 5 whole days!!
Posts may be a little late, but that's cuz there' barely any FREE wifi.
•*•*
I'm officially on a boat!!! Was totes lost at first, but I was finally the one with the map (im the map, im the map. Im the MAP!)
The drill was super boring and it was really funny, cuz there was this not completely sober dude named Tom and the girl who was giving directions, Kelly, totally called him out and it was hilarious.
For dinner I wore capri jeggings with a turquoise shirt that had a ruffle going down the middle. I took a left strand of hair and pinned it with a heart teal clip (I'll tell u wen its on FB).
It was so much fun (even wen we had 2 w8 30 minutes) bcuz we went 2 a sushi bar and had fun while Ann had a fit.
Dropping us off in our puny cabin without a window where Ann and I hav pull-out beds, our parents went to watch a show and Ann and I settled down on my bed. We got our DVD player and set it up on Ann's bed where it was diagonal to mine. We got all cozy and watched Lemonade Mouth (16th TIME!!).
Finally it was bed time and there I'm typing this. Sorry if this is late, again, barely any wifi in the middle of the sea, but I hope you enjoyed today's story of OAB 1!
Luv&Stuff,
M2
Saturday, July 28, 2012
Bon Voyage!! OAB Day 1
Dear Diary,
M2 starting today is going to be on a boat (hooray!)!
But... There's no wifi on that boat that's free (noooo!)!
But this trip I'm keeping up to date with this diary! Some may be late cuz of the whole wifi process, but stayed tuned!
The first entry should be today, but until then,
BON VOYAGE!!!
LotsofLuv,
M2
M2 starting today is going to be on a boat (hooray!)!
But... There's no wifi on that boat that's free (noooo!)!
But this trip I'm keeping up to date with this diary! Some may be late cuz of the whole wifi process, but stayed tuned!
The first entry should be today, but until then,
BON VOYAGE!!!
LotsofLuv,
M2
Tuesday, July 3, 2012
If it Makes You Feel Any Better - By M2
If it makes you feel any better,
Jesus had annoying siblings, too.
If it makes you feel any better,
Jesus got tired, too.
If it makes you feel any better,
Jesus had a favorite book, too.
If it makes you feel any better,
Jesus didn't have much money, too.
If it makes you feel any better,
Jesus missed His dad, too.
If it makes you feel any better,
Jesus got angry, too.
If it makes you feel any better,
Jesus was the Peace Maker, too.
If it makes you feel any better,
Jesus was hungry, too.
If it makes you feel any better,
Jesus had dreams, too.
If it makes you feel any better,
Jesus had fights with friends, too.
If it makes you feel any better,
Jesus had temptations, too.
If it makes you feel any better,
Jesus loved someone, too.
If it makes you feel any better,
Jesus cared about others' lives, too.
If it makes you feel any better,
Jesus was betrayed, too.
If it makes you feel any better,
Jesus' friends were boastful, too.
If it makes you feel any better,
Jesus knows what you've been through.
Jesus had annoying siblings, too.
If it makes you feel any better,
Jesus got tired, too.
If it makes you feel any better,
Jesus had a favorite book, too.
If it makes you feel any better,
Jesus didn't have much money, too.
If it makes you feel any better,
Jesus missed His dad, too.
If it makes you feel any better,
Jesus got angry, too.
If it makes you feel any better,
Jesus was the Peace Maker, too.
If it makes you feel any better,
Jesus was hungry, too.
If it makes you feel any better,
Jesus had dreams, too.
If it makes you feel any better,
Jesus had fights with friends, too.
If it makes you feel any better,
Jesus had temptations, too.
If it makes you feel any better,
Jesus loved someone, too.
If it makes you feel any better,
Jesus cared about others' lives, too.
If it makes you feel any better,
Jesus was betrayed, too.
If it makes you feel any better,
Jesus' friends were boastful, too.
If it makes you feel any better,
Jesus knows what you've been through.
Saturday, June 23, 2012
Summer Update
Dear Diary,
Heyy! I realized it's been such a long while since I wrote to y'all! Here's my summer update then I probs won't be back for another eh, 3 weeks?
Came back from camp yesterday and I am so pooped from feeling like walking up a lighthouse everyday! I had no idea one university could have so many steps!! Everywhere I go I feel like doing a cheer or dance I've learned which is really weird and embarrassing. Who knew cheerleaders had to deal with so much?
Ann's recital was today and she did absolutely on hand fab! (except that I was sitting there for 3 hours waiting for her two performances)
My Pokemon stories have kept me busy for quite some time since I'm actually writing two. Like LG says I really have no earthly idea how I can keep all 600 something Pokemon straight, but I do! My newest Pokemon story Pokemon:Together features friends I knew and know for quite some time. If you aren't a main main character you still carry a big part. Like Kit Kat for example helps lead my 14 main characters out of danger, risking her own life in the process. Luckily for me I have the whole summer to write. Unluckily for me, we're almost already half-way through summer!! (ahhhh!!!)
I miss screaming at my toddlers at the daycare because I was at camp. :((( But I do know Jessie did that for me!
I got 27 emails for being gone in 3 days. I mean, really, people?!
My roomie Lily and I keep texting using Haley's phone. We come up with the weirdest things to talk about...
Me am so bored I can get bored-itis.
BOREDOM!!!!
Later All Of Y'all,
M2
Heyy! I realized it's been such a long while since I wrote to y'all! Here's my summer update then I probs won't be back for another eh, 3 weeks?
Came back from camp yesterday and I am so pooped from feeling like walking up a lighthouse everyday! I had no idea one university could have so many steps!! Everywhere I go I feel like doing a cheer or dance I've learned which is really weird and embarrassing. Who knew cheerleaders had to deal with so much?
Ann's recital was today and she did absolutely on hand fab! (except that I was sitting there for 3 hours waiting for her two performances)
My Pokemon stories have kept me busy for quite some time since I'm actually writing two. Like LG says I really have no earthly idea how I can keep all 600 something Pokemon straight, but I do! My newest Pokemon story Pokemon:Together features friends I knew and know for quite some time. If you aren't a main main character you still carry a big part. Like Kit Kat for example helps lead my 14 main characters out of danger, risking her own life in the process. Luckily for me I have the whole summer to write. Unluckily for me, we're almost already half-way through summer!! (ahhhh!!!)
I miss screaming at my toddlers at the daycare because I was at camp. :((( But I do know Jessie did that for me!
I got 27 emails for being gone in 3 days. I mean, really, people?!
My roomie Lily and I keep texting using Haley's phone. We come up with the weirdest things to talk about...
Me am so bored I can get bored-itis.
BOREDOM!!!!
Later All Of Y'all,
M2
Sunday, May 27, 2012
My Sweet Little Friend
You know your lucky when you have a friend who laughs with you, talks to you, stands up for you, endures with you, and holds on to you.
Happy Birthday, my debris of a Volcano, blazing wildly.
-M2
Happy Birthday, my debris of a Volcano, blazing wildly.
-M2
Saturday, May 19, 2012
When I Think (reply to LKK's Writing Craze
Dear Diary,
Hey everyone. So this is just basically a response to LKK's blog, The Writing Craze. If you want to check it out go to www.lkkthewritingcraze.blogspot.com!!There you can read Story Spotlights, book reviews, special notes, and anything that my friend Ames feels like putting up there!!
So here's my response:
Found my thinking spot wayy too long ago. I totally agree that the shower is thinking place number one to the max! Just play some music in the background and stand under the warm water... I think we do that because its one of those only times we're just standing still not doing anything... Mystery to me though.
Secondly, I think a lot before I go to sleep. Nicole Gerena at school said, "Sometimes I lay awake at night and pretend I'm a carrot." I actually have to agree. Not with the carrot part, but just staying awake and thinking everything out. Again another time of not doing anything but relaxing. If you're not mentally tired your mind just wanders off itself. For me I play out my dreams in my head or pretend to vlog. (video blog) And other times you just think about things going on around you.
Sometimes when you have an issue that has been bugging you for a while you need to think it out. So take a break from your busy schedule, as in put down your iPod, turn off your computer, get outta bed, shut off the tv, close your door, and take a seat. Think it all out.
If that doesn't work sometimes you can write it out. Email, text, notebook, whiteboard. And if you do that every week then there is a special term for that...
America calls it a diary.
Hey everyone. So this is just basically a response to LKK's blog, The Writing Craze. If you want to check it out go to www.lkkthewritingcraze.blogspot.com!!There you can read Story Spotlights, book reviews, special notes, and anything that my friend Ames feels like putting up there!!
So here's my response:
Found my thinking spot wayy too long ago. I totally agree that the shower is thinking place number one to the max! Just play some music in the background and stand under the warm water... I think we do that because its one of those only times we're just standing still not doing anything... Mystery to me though.
Secondly, I think a lot before I go to sleep. Nicole Gerena at school said, "Sometimes I lay awake at night and pretend I'm a carrot." I actually have to agree. Not with the carrot part, but just staying awake and thinking everything out. Again another time of not doing anything but relaxing. If you're not mentally tired your mind just wanders off itself. For me I play out my dreams in my head or pretend to vlog. (video blog) And other times you just think about things going on around you.
Sometimes when you have an issue that has been bugging you for a while you need to think it out. So take a break from your busy schedule, as in put down your iPod, turn off your computer, get outta bed, shut off the tv, close your door, and take a seat. Think it all out.
If that doesn't work sometimes you can write it out. Email, text, notebook, whiteboard. And if you do that every week then there is a special term for that...
America calls it a diary.
Wednesday, April 18, 2012
What I Wish They Included in the Epilogue of The Hunger Games
Hello, ppl of earth. I finally finished THG series, and had to admit it was really good. But I wish that one, ppl as young a 2nd graders wood stop reading it, 2, it wasn't so depressing, lll, Rue and Prim wood hav survived, & for, it had a WAY better epilogue ending.
Since I'm so fumed about the Epilogue here is my add on version of it.
So after my fav song "Deep In The Meadow" (not sure wat real name is), and after Peeta's all like the book and evthing, here's my v:
And whenever Johanna, Annie, and her son stop by for a visit now and then, the stories the surviving victors share with their kids give them hope.
It was sad to see Buttercup take his last breath while only to see the small, ugly cat I almost drowned was a girl, the only thing reminding me more of sweet Prim. But Buttercup remains in our home on the meadow, buried in the meadow itself where it's three kittens play with my children.
The black one explores the meadow watching its mother's grave. The snowy white one, my least favorite that Peeta says is like me, hunts the mice in the house and brings it back to me triumphantly. Lastly, the silver kitten with the black and white patched fur watches my children and protects them from harm. The daisy always flowing back and forth in the wind.
~_~_~_~
Then it continues with the rest of the Epilogue and I'm satisfied.
That's basically all I wish for, and the Deep in the Meadow song keeps playing, stuck in my head.
Later my friends. Remember to show yourself in all that you do.
As a famous missionary once said, "No reserves, No restraints, No regrets."
M2 - @>--
Since I'm so fumed about the Epilogue here is my add on version of it.
So after my fav song "Deep In The Meadow" (not sure wat real name is), and after Peeta's all like the book and evthing, here's my v:
And whenever Johanna, Annie, and her son stop by for a visit now and then, the stories the surviving victors share with their kids give them hope.
It was sad to see Buttercup take his last breath while only to see the small, ugly cat I almost drowned was a girl, the only thing reminding me more of sweet Prim. But Buttercup remains in our home on the meadow, buried in the meadow itself where it's three kittens play with my children.
The black one explores the meadow watching its mother's grave. The snowy white one, my least favorite that Peeta says is like me, hunts the mice in the house and brings it back to me triumphantly. Lastly, the silver kitten with the black and white patched fur watches my children and protects them from harm. The daisy always flowing back and forth in the wind.
~_~_~_~
Then it continues with the rest of the Epilogue and I'm satisfied.
That's basically all I wish for, and the Deep in the Meadow song keeps playing, stuck in my head.
Later my friends. Remember to show yourself in all that you do.
As a famous missionary once said, "No reserves, No restraints, No regrets."
M2 - @>--
Monday, April 9, 2012
The Roserade in Me
Dear Diary,
Sorry, y'all. I've sorta been a stuck-up jerk lately and me criticizing you is never a good thing.
Cheer tryout clinic was today, and I learned yet another dance along with a cheer and some jumps. That makes THREE dances to memorize!! Yay for me!! So real tryouts are on Monday, hope and pray I fulfill my dream of being a cheerleader!!
Today's bloggy for the week is about me.
Alright that probably sounds really dumb, and I know what y'all are thinking.
"That's so dumb!! You talk about yourself too much, you're too human!"
We all know you would never say that to my face but still, you thought...
Anyways, the title for today's post is called "The Roserade in Me" if you scroll up just a little more... Right there!!
You are prob wondering who the world is Roserade? Well Roserade is a Pokémon, a grass type, actually. It's green and has one red rose for a hand and the other a blue rose. (You are thinking I am so weird for liking stuff like this).
Here's what my Pokédex says of my dear Roserade:
"Roserade, THE BOUQUET POKÉMON. Each of its hands contains different toxins, but both hands can jab with near-fatal power."
So mean! It forgot to say how pretty Roserade is in the inside and out.
There is one episode in particular and it is in the tenth season of Pokémon.
This episode is called "Oh Do You Know the Poffin Plan?" (just if you need to know, a poffin is a treat you make of berries for your Pokémon in the Sinnoh region [still wondering what the world I'm talking bout!!]).
Here is the link to watch it. I hope it works!!
http://pokemonepisode.org/episode-491-oh-do-you-know-the-poffin-plan/
Now if you don't like what I'm talking about then you might as well click the red x and walk away because this is the real me. The nerdy, true to self me. If you're doing that were you my friend in the first place?
I'm gonna tell you the story anyways because sometimes the dumb website doesn't work when you press vid 1 or vid 2.
Obviously, this eppy has a Roserade in it.
"Our heroes" Ash, Dawn, and Brock come across a place where you can cook poffins in Floroama Town in Sinnoh. The owner of the place, Forsythia, has a huge berry field with every type of berry (theres prob a hundred!!) for poffin making. She also owns a very shy Roserade that barely comes out but loves to tend the berry field along with some other grass and water types.
They all find out that the shy Roserade was rescued by the owner when she was a Budew and it was freezing cold. Forsythia had taken the Budew home with her and wrapped it in a wool red scarf. Budew later evolves into Roselia then into (finally!) Roserade.
They also discover later how every night Roserade takes the red scarf out and wraps it around its head like a mask. It becomes the guardian to the garden and attacks all those who try to steal the berries.
When the evil people, Team Rocket, go after the berries with a machine, Meowth, their Pokémon, takes away the scarf and Roserade can't protect it. The garden is being destroyed and nothing can stop the machine!
Until Roserade realizes that only she can do it and she doesn't need her mask to be strong! She just needs to have courage and be herself.
She saves everyone then brings the garden back to life in the blink of an eye.
After that episode I fell in love with Roserade! She... She's actually one of my partners on Pokémon Platinum!! Her name's Blossem and she's my contest partner. Together with my three other contest challengers I hope to finally win the master rank!!
Like Roserade I'm different at home and outta school. But I'm slowly learning to be myself. Another thing that brought me hope was when Kat said "I like this Sunny" one time when I was acting like me. It made me feel really good about myself!!
So that's the Roserade in me, and I hope you love her just as much as I do!!
Blog ya later,
<3 @>--rade <3
Sorry, y'all. I've sorta been a stuck-up jerk lately and me criticizing you is never a good thing.
Cheer tryout clinic was today, and I learned yet another dance along with a cheer and some jumps. That makes THREE dances to memorize!! Yay for me!! So real tryouts are on Monday, hope and pray I fulfill my dream of being a cheerleader!!
Today's bloggy for the week is about me.
Alright that probably sounds really dumb, and I know what y'all are thinking.
"That's so dumb!! You talk about yourself too much, you're too human!"
We all know you would never say that to my face but still, you thought...
Anyways, the title for today's post is called "The Roserade in Me" if you scroll up just a little more... Right there!!
You are prob wondering who the world is Roserade? Well Roserade is a Pokémon, a grass type, actually. It's green and has one red rose for a hand and the other a blue rose. (You are thinking I am so weird for liking stuff like this).
Here's what my Pokédex says of my dear Roserade:
"Roserade, THE BOUQUET POKÉMON. Each of its hands contains different toxins, but both hands can jab with near-fatal power."
So mean! It forgot to say how pretty Roserade is in the inside and out.
There is one episode in particular and it is in the tenth season of Pokémon.
This episode is called "Oh Do You Know the Poffin Plan?" (just if you need to know, a poffin is a treat you make of berries for your Pokémon in the Sinnoh region [still wondering what the world I'm talking bout!!]).
Here is the link to watch it. I hope it works!!
http://pokemonepisode.org/episode-491-oh-do-you-know-the-poffin-plan/
Now if you don't like what I'm talking about then you might as well click the red x and walk away because this is the real me. The nerdy, true to self me. If you're doing that were you my friend in the first place?
I'm gonna tell you the story anyways because sometimes the dumb website doesn't work when you press vid 1 or vid 2.
Obviously, this eppy has a Roserade in it.
"Our heroes" Ash, Dawn, and Brock come across a place where you can cook poffins in Floroama Town in Sinnoh. The owner of the place, Forsythia, has a huge berry field with every type of berry (theres prob a hundred!!) for poffin making. She also owns a very shy Roserade that barely comes out but loves to tend the berry field along with some other grass and water types.
They all find out that the shy Roserade was rescued by the owner when she was a Budew and it was freezing cold. Forsythia had taken the Budew home with her and wrapped it in a wool red scarf. Budew later evolves into Roselia then into (finally!) Roserade.
They also discover later how every night Roserade takes the red scarf out and wraps it around its head like a mask. It becomes the guardian to the garden and attacks all those who try to steal the berries.
When the evil people, Team Rocket, go after the berries with a machine, Meowth, their Pokémon, takes away the scarf and Roserade can't protect it. The garden is being destroyed and nothing can stop the machine!
Until Roserade realizes that only she can do it and she doesn't need her mask to be strong! She just needs to have courage and be herself.
She saves everyone then brings the garden back to life in the blink of an eye.
After that episode I fell in love with Roserade! She... She's actually one of my partners on Pokémon Platinum!! Her name's Blossem and she's my contest partner. Together with my three other contest challengers I hope to finally win the master rank!!
Like Roserade I'm different at home and outta school. But I'm slowly learning to be myself. Another thing that brought me hope was when Kat said "I like this Sunny" one time when I was acting like me. It made me feel really good about myself!!
So that's the Roserade in me, and I hope you love her just as much as I do!!
Blog ya later,
<3 @>--rade <3
Sunday, April 8, 2012
Tuesday, April 3, 2012
BEWA Week 1 - The Five of Me
Dear Diary,
Hey everyone!! Welcome to Blog Every Week in April!! I would do everyday, but I'm not like LG staying up all night to do this stuff.
So y'all read the "awkward" post on Random Ramble right? Well here's my version of it... Except with THREE of me.
~•~•~•~
The Real Me - Regular Font
The Drama Queen - Bold
The Secret Nerd - Italics
Go to sleep...
No!! Stay up!! Stay up!! We have contests to win!!
Ugh, you guys are such nerds...
Hey! I'm called that for a reason!! Little miss drama...
Go to sleep...
*rolls over and knocks down stuffed animal*
EXCUSE EM MOI!!
HEY!! I said BE QUIET!!!
*hits Drama Me with pillow*
Oh no she didn't...
*pillow fight until Real Me surrenders and falls dead to sleep*
*pause*... Did I kill her?
No, you nut!! She's asleep!!
Argh!!! Both of you, BE QUIET!!!!!
~•~•~•~
... Ok, maybe the real me was the drama queen here, but I blame drama me for that... (and for the record, I did not start hitting myself with a pillow, this all happened in my brain to try and get me asleep)
So blog ya later!!
(Pray that little Ms. Drama doesn't wake me up tonight!!)
Hey!!
*hits with banana*
*hits back with orange
You've seen nothing...
Good nite everybody!!
ALL OF US!!!
Hey everyone!! Welcome to Blog Every Week in April!! I would do everyday, but I'm not like LG staying up all night to do this stuff.
So y'all read the "awkward" post on Random Ramble right? Well here's my version of it... Except with THREE of me.
~•~•~•~
The Real Me - Regular Font
The Drama Queen - Bold
The Secret Nerd - Italics
Go to sleep...
No!! Stay up!! Stay up!! We have contests to win!!
Ugh, you guys are such nerds...
Hey! I'm called that for a reason!! Little miss drama...
Go to sleep...
*rolls over and knocks down stuffed animal*
EXCUSE EM MOI!!
HEY!! I said BE QUIET!!!
*hits Drama Me with pillow*
Oh no she didn't...
*pillow fight until Real Me surrenders and falls dead to sleep*
*pause*... Did I kill her?
No, you nut!! She's asleep!!
Argh!!! Both of you, BE QUIET!!!!!
~•~•~•~
... Ok, maybe the real me was the drama queen here, but I blame drama me for that... (and for the record, I did not start hitting myself with a pillow, this all happened in my brain to try and get me asleep)
So blog ya later!!
(Pray that little Ms. Drama doesn't wake me up tonight!!)
Hey!!
*hits with banana*
*hits back with orange
You've seen nothing...
Good nite everybody!!
Wednesday, March 28, 2012
The Field Trip and Whitney Lee Milam
Dear Diary,
Guess who's being her inner nerd and watching YT vids of the one and only utterly amazing Whitney Lee Milam? Moi moi moi!!!
So, everyone, tomorrow's the big D A Y!! Knock yourselves out, it'll be downright awesome. W, I'm keeping my side of the promise. Meet'cha at Kracken and we'll have a blast at Manta. ; )
So the first vid LG posted of THG was the I Wanna Go Parody featuring (just guess) Whitney!! She was playing Katniss and LG's fav character you have heard of Joey, played Gale, while their friend Luke played Peeta.
That's where I somehow learned of Whitney, and I liked her SOO much better than Megan in The Arena one currently up at Random Ramblings (no offense!!).
So after looking for a while I found a YT vid by Whitney and I love her!!(Except when she cusses...)
Now all I can think about is Whitney Whitney Whitney!!!
I saw another THG vid by Whitney and Luke is such a better Peeta...
After watching all those crazy awesome vids about their little group thing I thought it would be awesome to start our only little YT thing!!
Of course when we're older and our parents allow us to show our faces.,.
That'd be crazy awesome!!!
So hope to see y'all on the field trip, Whitney Lee Milam is awesome!!!
Later and Love Ya!!
The Secret Nerd ( : D )
APA: 6:55 PM
Guess who's being her inner nerd and watching YT vids of the one and only utterly amazing Whitney Lee Milam? Moi moi moi!!!
So, everyone, tomorrow's the big D A Y!! Knock yourselves out, it'll be downright awesome. W, I'm keeping my side of the promise. Meet'cha at Kracken and we'll have a blast at Manta. ; )
So the first vid LG posted of THG was the I Wanna Go Parody featuring (just guess) Whitney!! She was playing Katniss and LG's fav character you have heard of Joey, played Gale, while their friend Luke played Peeta.
That's where I somehow learned of Whitney, and I liked her SOO much better than Megan in The Arena one currently up at Random Ramblings (no offense!!).
So after looking for a while I found a YT vid by Whitney and I love her!!(Except when she cusses...)
Now all I can think about is Whitney Whitney Whitney!!!
I saw another THG vid by Whitney and Luke is such a better Peeta...
After watching all those crazy awesome vids about their little group thing I thought it would be awesome to start our only little YT thing!!
Of course when we're older and our parents allow us to show our faces.,.
That'd be crazy awesome!!!
So hope to see y'all on the field trip, Whitney Lee Milam is awesome!!!
Later and Love Ya!!
The Secret Nerd ( : D )
APA: 6:55 PM
Tuesday, March 27, 2012
March 27, 2012
Dear Diary,
Not much happened today.
Still tired from the trip and such.
Kinda have a hunch to a question I have.
Hoping Peeta and Dallas will remember the next practice.
Dreading my seats.
Can't wait for the field trip.
Learned I can continue The Hunger Games (Yay! I think...).
Still trying to figure out how to post YT vids on here...
Want to put my laptop ACTUALLY IN my room.
Bored...
Confusion with co-authors for new story.
Realization.
LYL,
------DO NOT CROSS------
*^"Under Transformation"^*
------DO NOT CROSS------
APA: 5:10 PM
Not much happened today.
Still tired from the trip and such.
Kinda have a hunch to a question I have.
Hoping Peeta and Dallas will remember the next practice.
Dreading my seats.
Can't wait for the field trip.
Learned I can continue The Hunger Games (Yay! I think...).
Still trying to figure out how to post YT vids on here...
Want to put my laptop ACTUALLY IN my room.
Bored...
Confusion with co-authors for new story.
Realization.
LYL,
------DO NOT CROSS------
*^"Under Transformation"^*
------DO NOT CROSS------
APA: 5:10 PM
Sunday, March 25, 2012
The Hunger Games and Practice Time!!
Dear Diary,
I finally have practice at Nel's house. She's running an awesome blog, but it's exclusive to find so good luck with that!!
So everyone says Hunger Games this, Hunger Games that, blah blah blah. Then there's the whole talk about Peeta and Katniss and Gale.
"Oh, they are so cute together!!"
"Katniss shoulda been with Gale, Peeta sucks."
"This romance stuff is sappy."
"Team Gale! Team Gale!"
"Team Peeta! Team Peeta!"
"Wait, there are teams now?"
Seriously, people!! This isn't Twilight! Plus, how can I say "Team Finnick" when I have no clue who the world he is?!?!
After the book deal with Alex, I was forced to read the book while she read the first book of my old favorite series, The 39 Clues.
So here's the dealio: I honest to goodnessly, no matter what I've said, loved the book. By Chapter 2 you're already entranced.
But every single time I close my eyes at night all I see is the death of my favorite character, and then everything else bad comes rushing through. Sure I have a favorite part, but it seems the worst overcomes it.
Luckily, for me, reviews for the movie say it was less violent then the book. Although it also said kiddies under 12 should NOT watch the movie at ALL. (Yippee...)
*sigh* I don't even know whether or not I should continue... All I get is negative outcome and four of the six best friends I have vote against the Hunger Games...
That and I don't even know if Alex likes it or not!
Oops... Left out that detail... See, if both of us like the book we read both of us can continue. But if one of us doesn't like it...
You get my point. Alex hasn't said one utter murmur about the 39 Clues!!
Good bye, Hunger Games...
So far the first few moves of the dance I got pat down. I just have to learn a lot more...
Wish me luck with all I got, y'all. Hoping Peeta won't forget his guitar next week...
LYL <3,
~The Girl Under Transformation~
PS: LYL means Luv Y'all Lots
APT: 8:20 PM
PPS: APT means Actually Posted At
I finally have practice at Nel's house. She's running an awesome blog, but it's exclusive to find so good luck with that!!
So everyone says Hunger Games this, Hunger Games that, blah blah blah. Then there's the whole talk about Peeta and Katniss and Gale.
"Oh, they are so cute together!!"
"Katniss shoulda been with Gale, Peeta sucks."
"This romance stuff is sappy."
"Team Gale! Team Gale!"
"Team Peeta! Team Peeta!"
"Wait, there are teams now?"
Seriously, people!! This isn't Twilight! Plus, how can I say "Team Finnick" when I have no clue who the world he is?!?!
After the book deal with Alex, I was forced to read the book while she read the first book of my old favorite series, The 39 Clues.
So here's the dealio: I honest to goodnessly, no matter what I've said, loved the book. By Chapter 2 you're already entranced.
But every single time I close my eyes at night all I see is the death of my favorite character, and then everything else bad comes rushing through. Sure I have a favorite part, but it seems the worst overcomes it.
Luckily, for me, reviews for the movie say it was less violent then the book. Although it also said kiddies under 12 should NOT watch the movie at ALL. (Yippee...)
*sigh* I don't even know whether or not I should continue... All I get is negative outcome and four of the six best friends I have vote against the Hunger Games...
That and I don't even know if Alex likes it or not!
Oops... Left out that detail... See, if both of us like the book we read both of us can continue. But if one of us doesn't like it...
You get my point. Alex hasn't said one utter murmur about the 39 Clues!!
Good bye, Hunger Games...
So far the first few moves of the dance I got pat down. I just have to learn a lot more...
Wish me luck with all I got, y'all. Hoping Peeta won't forget his guitar next week...
LYL <3,
~The Girl Under Transformation~
PS: LYL means Luv Y'all Lots
APT: 8:20 PM
PPS: APT means Actually Posted At
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
The Lost Get Found
Dear Diary,
Uh, if you know me, you know I've been faced with some choices for the talent show (will it ever end?).
So do you remember when I once said I sorta wanted to be with the Dancing Divas? I still do, but my answer was always that I could never betray W like that, even while feeling left out with the whole tricycle and then the unicycle (long story).
Yesterday I learned that I could be in two groups!! I thought. "awesome! I can finally fulfill my wish!"
Uh, no.
Now I'm just dead lost.
First of all, not all of the Dancing Divas want me in their group. I'm not calling any names, you know who you are.
Secondly, W won't let me, which just brings me to tears.
Look, W. I know you're reading this and I need you to hear me.
Nel told me everything you said and you guys were both being cold. I can't blame you though, things have always been heated. Why didn't you just talk to me? You upset me more then anything. What happened to being able to tell each other things with no regret?
I told you who I liked because I trusted you; I stopped mocking you of Dude; I left you and Kat alone for once.
We didn't talk today at all besides English where we're forced to sit next to each other. Even then they weren't exactly "nice" words. What happened to the thousands of words every day? Positive and encouraging?
Look, here's the truth: I can't be the real me with Repeat. I mean, I'm not saying I don't want to be in Repeat, just hear me out. I love being in Repeat, whether excluded or not. Repeat is one of the only things holding is together.
Truth be told, if I can't be myself, I'm not happy. I need to be free to be me. Today in Art I based my picture on a Pokémon and I couldn't be anymore happier. Happiness isn't everything, but it's nice to have a nice vibe goin' on.
I'm not the only one hurting, either. Someone I know misses her bestie Kat after your fellow flutist doesn't seem to pay much attention to her.
Our song says who says your not the only one who's hurting, and you can't doubt it because no one knows it better than you and I. I know for a fact you're hurting just as much as I am. We need to fix this, and NOT through emails.
You are the best friend who had stayed with me since kindergarden, the girl who had always been 30 seconds away. The one I would get in trouble talking to during class last year.
I wish I could have just one more moment of just us!!!
I'm lost... Then Britt Nicole reminded me how I can be found through.
The lyrics in her song tell everyone how all of us hit potholes in the road. If we have a strong faith in God alone, we will be found by Him. Not only that, but He'll even give us a free tire change, a new chance!!
I need to do both Repeat AND the Dancing Divas.
A special Bible teacher once told me that I made a commitment to Repeat. And I'm not breaking it... Even if I was kicked out already...
She also told me that if it's my choice and if I really want to I could join the Divas.
Maybe because I was never lost, but God was found.
I'm a secret seeker... ; ))
Love y'all and wish me luck!!
Yours Through Everything,
The Secret Seeker <3
8-D
Uh, if you know me, you know I've been faced with some choices for the talent show (will it ever end?).
So do you remember when I once said I sorta wanted to be with the Dancing Divas? I still do, but my answer was always that I could never betray W like that, even while feeling left out with the whole tricycle and then the unicycle (long story).
Yesterday I learned that I could be in two groups!! I thought. "awesome! I can finally fulfill my wish!"
Uh, no.
Now I'm just dead lost.
First of all, not all of the Dancing Divas want me in their group. I'm not calling any names, you know who you are.
Secondly, W won't let me, which just brings me to tears.
Look, W. I know you're reading this and I need you to hear me.
Nel told me everything you said and you guys were both being cold. I can't blame you though, things have always been heated. Why didn't you just talk to me? You upset me more then anything. What happened to being able to tell each other things with no regret?
I told you who I liked because I trusted you; I stopped mocking you of Dude; I left you and Kat alone for once.
We didn't talk today at all besides English where we're forced to sit next to each other. Even then they weren't exactly "nice" words. What happened to the thousands of words every day? Positive and encouraging?
Look, here's the truth: I can't be the real me with Repeat. I mean, I'm not saying I don't want to be in Repeat, just hear me out. I love being in Repeat, whether excluded or not. Repeat is one of the only things holding is together.
Truth be told, if I can't be myself, I'm not happy. I need to be free to be me. Today in Art I based my picture on a Pokémon and I couldn't be anymore happier. Happiness isn't everything, but it's nice to have a nice vibe goin' on.
I'm not the only one hurting, either. Someone I know misses her bestie Kat after your fellow flutist doesn't seem to pay much attention to her.
Our song says who says your not the only one who's hurting, and you can't doubt it because no one knows it better than you and I. I know for a fact you're hurting just as much as I am. We need to fix this, and NOT through emails.
You are the best friend who had stayed with me since kindergarden, the girl who had always been 30 seconds away. The one I would get in trouble talking to during class last year.
I wish I could have just one more moment of just us!!!
I'm lost... Then Britt Nicole reminded me how I can be found through.
The lyrics in her song tell everyone how all of us hit potholes in the road. If we have a strong faith in God alone, we will be found by Him. Not only that, but He'll even give us a free tire change, a new chance!!
I need to do both Repeat AND the Dancing Divas.
A special Bible teacher once told me that I made a commitment to Repeat. And I'm not breaking it... Even if I was kicked out already...
She also told me that if it's my choice and if I really want to I could join the Divas.
Maybe because I was never lost, but God was found.
I'm a secret seeker... ; ))
Love y'all and wish me luck!!
Yours Through Everything,
The Secret Seeker <3
8-D
Thursday, March 8, 2012
My Purpose In The World
Dear Diary,
Long time no see... Heh heh... Yeh...
So... Good news? LG has herself a cell!! Lucky her... A nice, NEW cell phone to get...
Sorry, I pretty much lost my voice (again) and currently hating it.
Ah, well. Let's talk about Wednesday and practice, shall we... (I sound like an old person about to tell a story!)
K, first it all started when we went to get pizzas at Little Caesar's. I went in with Droplet, and Ann, Ms. Waller, Dallas, and W stayed in the car. I paid for the pizzas with the money Ms. Waller gave me then went in the car.
The two pizza boxes were so hot that when I gave them to Dallas and W, they burned their legs/lap!!
All I have to say is that I warned them...
We went home (W's house) and ate the pizzas, and during lunch Dude came.
Just during that event there was some screaming from Dallas and W. I just sat peacefully at the table somewhat texting LG and Alex.
Then we put Dallas' drum set together and THAT was awesome!! I'll post a pic lates when I receive it!! That took about forty minutes to put that together, and then we sorta started.
We did really well for the first time!! I should know, because I'm pretty much the only person who can hear it clearly, being the dancer in the background and all that.
Every time we played and messed up we were somewhat getting stronger and learning.
I, on the other hand, still have to choreograph a dance, so pray that God would help me, even if I don't want to.
Then all we did was play the last hour out on the swings in the back.
My tummy hurts from where Dallas stepped on it and I betcha Dude has a bruise...
From the amazing heart-wrenching lemon war!!
As y'all should be informed, the Wallers' have a lemon tree in their backyard. Not the small, puny lemons at the grocery store. The bigger than a grapefruit lemons!!
Dallas, as I call her, Destructive, picked up a lemon and, as Dude was walking behind her, threw it at Dude and nailed him right in the leg.
Falling to the ground, he picked up the lemon and threw it at Dallas. Then, he tried to throw it at W and failed miserably. I just sat on the swing the whole war.
Then, since they were yelled at, I moved over to the edge of the pool and then the Battle of Tennis and a Volleyball Balls began, with Team Peeta (off the Hunger Games) and The Girls Team (they were never officially named).
So then we went back to the swings and then Dallas' mum came.
The three went inside, but I didn't follow. I just stayed on the swing. I was told they called me in, but they did a lousy effort at trying to get me inside. They showed it to Dallas' mum without me.
I mean, I guess it's my fault for not coming in, but... My conscience is telling me not to tell you why I didn't go in...
Basically it's like me with the Circle of Six being the outsider and what not.
Which, by the way, was split up in half. Now we're just two triangles. Well, sometimes a square and a line.
I think I may just join the Divas or something.
But I can't now.
One, W would be mad at me forever.
Two, Repeat already started practicing (not that they need me too much).
Three, the Divas already started practicing.
And Four, I can't back down from a fight.
I wanna see the rainbow at the end of the battle. But I can't have a rainbow without any rain.
My pain is for a reason. I'm going to stay strong. Even though that may include some emotional suffering and physical pain dancing, I'm not backing down. What doesn't kill me is just making me stronger.
And that's my purpose in the world.
So... What's your's?
Long time no see... Heh heh... Yeh...
So... Good news? LG has herself a cell!! Lucky her... A nice, NEW cell phone to get...
Sorry, I pretty much lost my voice (again) and currently hating it.
Ah, well. Let's talk about Wednesday and practice, shall we... (I sound like an old person about to tell a story!)
K, first it all started when we went to get pizzas at Little Caesar's. I went in with Droplet, and Ann, Ms. Waller, Dallas, and W stayed in the car. I paid for the pizzas with the money Ms. Waller gave me then went in the car.
The two pizza boxes were so hot that when I gave them to Dallas and W, they burned their legs/lap!!
All I have to say is that I warned them...
We went home (W's house) and ate the pizzas, and during lunch Dude came.
Just during that event there was some screaming from Dallas and W. I just sat peacefully at the table somewhat texting LG and Alex.
Then we put Dallas' drum set together and THAT was awesome!! I'll post a pic lates when I receive it!! That took about forty minutes to put that together, and then we sorta started.
We did really well for the first time!! I should know, because I'm pretty much the only person who can hear it clearly, being the dancer in the background and all that.
Every time we played and messed up we were somewhat getting stronger and learning.
I, on the other hand, still have to choreograph a dance, so pray that God would help me, even if I don't want to.
Then all we did was play the last hour out on the swings in the back.
My tummy hurts from where Dallas stepped on it and I betcha Dude has a bruise...
From the amazing heart-wrenching lemon war!!
As y'all should be informed, the Wallers' have a lemon tree in their backyard. Not the small, puny lemons at the grocery store. The bigger than a grapefruit lemons!!
Dallas, as I call her, Destructive, picked up a lemon and, as Dude was walking behind her, threw it at Dude and nailed him right in the leg.
Falling to the ground, he picked up the lemon and threw it at Dallas. Then, he tried to throw it at W and failed miserably. I just sat on the swing the whole war.
Then, since they were yelled at, I moved over to the edge of the pool and then the Battle of Tennis and a Volleyball Balls began, with Team Peeta (off the Hunger Games) and The Girls Team (they were never officially named).
So then we went back to the swings and then Dallas' mum came.
The three went inside, but I didn't follow. I just stayed on the swing. I was told they called me in, but they did a lousy effort at trying to get me inside. They showed it to Dallas' mum without me.
I mean, I guess it's my fault for not coming in, but... My conscience is telling me not to tell you why I didn't go in...
Basically it's like me with the Circle of Six being the outsider and what not.
Which, by the way, was split up in half. Now we're just two triangles. Well, sometimes a square and a line.
I think I may just join the Divas or something.
But I can't now.
One, W would be mad at me forever.
Two, Repeat already started practicing (not that they need me too much).
Three, the Divas already started practicing.
And Four, I can't back down from a fight.
I wanna see the rainbow at the end of the battle. But I can't have a rainbow without any rain.
My pain is for a reason. I'm going to stay strong. Even though that may include some emotional suffering and physical pain dancing, I'm not backing down. What doesn't kill me is just making me stronger.
And that's my purpose in the world.
So... What's your's?
Saturday, March 3, 2012
Trying Something New
Dear Diary,
Hi everyone...
So my family forced me into going to this small, new church which is really different from the big Christ Church.
The church is called Creekside Church. And tomorrow my dad is forcing me into going to my own service instead of going with them.
I hate it.
I make up excuses like, "oh, I understood it," and that I like listening to the worship music and what not.
I mean, the music part is true, but honestly I hate going to my own service!! I know D is gonna be there, but I guess I forgot to mention she's a year younger in fifth grade. AND, yes, there's an and, it's not just sixth grade, but the whole MIDDLE SCHOOL.
If you know me, you knew I was scared to death of middle school. Was still am, and always will be.
I just hate to be judged, you know? I never liked going because I was so sick of people forgetting my name, and I was invisible, and on and on and on.
Plus, the teachers are all up in your face and get all personal and stuff. I get tears every time because it seems no one has ever gone through what I've done.
I know I believe in God, I have a newfound strong faith, too, but this is just one of the things I can't handle doing.
Sure, I complain I'm invisible, but I sorta LIKE it like that.
This feels exactly like trying new food, doing new sports, overcoming fears, except a million timed worse.
I still gotta choreograph a dance, so I gotta go.
Email me advice and pray for me...
I really need it this time...
Luv y'all,
*•The Fearful One•*
Hi everyone...
So my family forced me into going to this small, new church which is really different from the big Christ Church.
The church is called Creekside Church. And tomorrow my dad is forcing me into going to my own service instead of going with them.
I hate it.
I make up excuses like, "oh, I understood it," and that I like listening to the worship music and what not.
I mean, the music part is true, but honestly I hate going to my own service!! I know D is gonna be there, but I guess I forgot to mention she's a year younger in fifth grade. AND, yes, there's an and, it's not just sixth grade, but the whole MIDDLE SCHOOL.
If you know me, you knew I was scared to death of middle school. Was still am, and always will be.
I just hate to be judged, you know? I never liked going because I was so sick of people forgetting my name, and I was invisible, and on and on and on.
Plus, the teachers are all up in your face and get all personal and stuff. I get tears every time because it seems no one has ever gone through what I've done.
I know I believe in God, I have a newfound strong faith, too, but this is just one of the things I can't handle doing.
Sure, I complain I'm invisible, but I sorta LIKE it like that.
This feels exactly like trying new food, doing new sports, overcoming fears, except a million timed worse.
I still gotta choreograph a dance, so I gotta go.
Email me advice and pray for me...
I really need it this time...
Luv y'all,
*•The Fearful One•*
Friday, March 2, 2012
More Detes of My Life at the Mo
Dear Diary,
Hey...
So W and I may be cool again, idk. I guess it depends in what genre you're looking in.
But I still have my doubts.
Here's my view of what will happen on Wednesday at practice:
Dude will be sitting on the couch like a log. W will be playing on her iPod and humming. Dallas will be chasing me around the house with a plastic knife. I will be screaming around the house in terror.
Please pray for me.
And, I don't know if I should dance, play the piano, or sing. LG and W told me I could sing, but I think not... Email me if you wanna hear it. All This Time by Britt Nicole, or What Can I Say by Shealeigh.
LG thought I was awesome; W thought I was amazing; I thought I was horrible.
Now this has nothing to do with self-confidence. After talking to Kat and having a stronger relationship with Him, that's been dealed with.
I feel lost when I'm around Dude, Dallas, and W. Probably will always be that way.
Eh, I guess if I want this to succeed I have to deal with it.
I don't wanna go to the song choices. Who Say's will be fine, I guess.
Gotta go choreograph, record, and sleep,
MCP @>--
PS: ALITTLEBIRDIEKNOWSWHOILIKE
TEE HEE!!
Hey...
So W and I may be cool again, idk. I guess it depends in what genre you're looking in.
But I still have my doubts.
Here's my view of what will happen on Wednesday at practice:
Dude will be sitting on the couch like a log. W will be playing on her iPod and humming. Dallas will be chasing me around the house with a plastic knife. I will be screaming around the house in terror.
Please pray for me.
And, I don't know if I should dance, play the piano, or sing. LG and W told me I could sing, but I think not... Email me if you wanna hear it. All This Time by Britt Nicole, or What Can I Say by Shealeigh.
LG thought I was awesome; W thought I was amazing; I thought I was horrible.
Now this has nothing to do with self-confidence. After talking to Kat and having a stronger relationship with Him, that's been dealed with.
I feel lost when I'm around Dude, Dallas, and W. Probably will always be that way.
Eh, I guess if I want this to succeed I have to deal with it.
I don't wanna go to the song choices. Who Say's will be fine, I guess.
Gotta go choreograph, record, and sleep,
MCP @>--
PS: ALITTLEBIRDIEKNOWSWHOILIKE
TEE HEE!!
Thursday, March 1, 2012
More Beautiful You
Dear Diary,
*cue music*
"little girl fourteen flipping through a magazine
says she wants to look that way
but her hair isn't straight her body isn't fake
and she's always felt over weight.
Well little girl fourteen I wish that you could see
that beauty is within your heart
and you were made with such care your skin your body and you hair
are perfect just the way they are.
[chorus]
there could never be a more beautiful you
don't buy the lies disguises and hoops they make you jump through
you are made to fill a purpose that only you could do
so there could never be a more beautiful you."
.....
Hey everyone...
Every time I read this, it makes me feel happy... Sorta, away from the world.
I'm really sorry, everyone!! I've been stuck so deep in my own misery that I could barely see my own hand in front of my face!!!
But I do need y'all's help right now. So we're clear W DOES know about all this, right?
Uhh... I think I may become a Dancing Diva instead of a Repeat member...
Wait!! I mean, I don't mean it like that!!
You see, lately W has been acting as if this wasn't important to her. And I've been wanting to do this; I haven't danced in front of a crowd since two years ago...
Adding on, Dallas and Dude are HER friends; they were never mine. The three of them are awesome... I'm not.
Although I may not be dancing.
LG, I REALLY need your opinion here. W, you too. Check your emails for a recording of me singing I sent you.
I really want honest answers here. Can I sing or not?
Looking at the lyrics, I don't need to be popular to be in God's perfect plan. I even learned that from Kat!! Thanks, Kat, by the way.
All of y'all helped me in my hardest times even without knowing it and I can't thank you enough.
I love you guys and want you to remember you are more beautiful then ever. Outside, and in.
See y'all tomorrow (or Monday, depending when you read it),
MCP @>--
*cue music*
"little girl fourteen flipping through a magazine
says she wants to look that way
but her hair isn't straight her body isn't fake
and she's always felt over weight.
Well little girl fourteen I wish that you could see
that beauty is within your heart
and you were made with such care your skin your body and you hair
are perfect just the way they are.
[chorus]
there could never be a more beautiful you
don't buy the lies disguises and hoops they make you jump through
you are made to fill a purpose that only you could do
so there could never be a more beautiful you."
.....
Hey everyone...
Every time I read this, it makes me feel happy... Sorta, away from the world.
I'm really sorry, everyone!! I've been stuck so deep in my own misery that I could barely see my own hand in front of my face!!!
But I do need y'all's help right now. So we're clear W DOES know about all this, right?
Uhh... I think I may become a Dancing Diva instead of a Repeat member...
Wait!! I mean, I don't mean it like that!!
You see, lately W has been acting as if this wasn't important to her. And I've been wanting to do this; I haven't danced in front of a crowd since two years ago...
Adding on, Dallas and Dude are HER friends; they were never mine. The three of them are awesome... I'm not.
Although I may not be dancing.
LG, I REALLY need your opinion here. W, you too. Check your emails for a recording of me singing I sent you.
I really want honest answers here. Can I sing or not?
Looking at the lyrics, I don't need to be popular to be in God's perfect plan. I even learned that from Kat!! Thanks, Kat, by the way.
All of y'all helped me in my hardest times even without knowing it and I can't thank you enough.
I love you guys and want you to remember you are more beautiful then ever. Outside, and in.
See y'all tomorrow (or Monday, depending when you read it),
MCP @>--
Friday, February 24, 2012
This is Me
Dear Diary,
I need some help and need y'all to email me immediately after reading this.
My friend, Mackenzie's, birthday party is tomorrow, and we have to come dressed like ourselves with who we really are and stuff.
Kenz told me to wear the purple "Luv 4 Fashion" shirt I wore on my birthday...
But here's my confession: I don't wanna be a designer; a like clothes and like to mix-match them, but I would never want them as a living!!
Fashion is just a statement for me; it was never me in the first place!! People know me for what like I act to be, barely any of my friends have EVER seen my true self; Alex and A are the only ones who have seen my heart...
I honestly like the shirt, but... It's not me...
I need y'all to email or text me what I should do.
And here's my other problem; the talent show is also tomorrow and Mackenzie also thought I should do designer stuff. Again, was that ever the real me?
I love to dance, and really enjoy it, but no one knows the me that dances except my family. I wanna dance instead of "design", but... No one really gets me!! Plus, Kamm has "apparently" seen better with her friend Sara...
Sometimes I just want to yell out to the world: THAT'S NOT ME!! THIS IS ME.
Then make a list of who I really am.
Like... The one below.
• Pokémon Addict
• Love Predictor
• Sensitive
• Editor
• Doesn't Really Like Purses
• Easily Annoyed
• Tired of the Drama
• Scared to be Hurt Again
• Not What She Seems
……… I know... I'm not at all who I appeared to be. When Kenzie talked about fourth grade about Pokémon, Hartley, Nelly, and I and said it was "weird", it really... Really did hurt.
I would put some more about my outlook on W, but apparently she reads this more than anyone and it would make her feel even worse.
Please do contact me as soon as possible.
I want my carefree life back...
Missing Much,
*•The Real Me•*
"I'd rather be hated for who I am than loved for who I am not." - Kurt Cobain
I need some help and need y'all to email me immediately after reading this.
My friend, Mackenzie's, birthday party is tomorrow, and we have to come dressed like ourselves with who we really are and stuff.
Kenz told me to wear the purple "Luv 4 Fashion" shirt I wore on my birthday...
But here's my confession: I don't wanna be a designer; a like clothes and like to mix-match them, but I would never want them as a living!!
Fashion is just a statement for me; it was never me in the first place!! People know me for what like I act to be, barely any of my friends have EVER seen my true self; Alex and A are the only ones who have seen my heart...
I honestly like the shirt, but... It's not me...
I need y'all to email or text me what I should do.
And here's my other problem; the talent show is also tomorrow and Mackenzie also thought I should do designer stuff. Again, was that ever the real me?
I love to dance, and really enjoy it, but no one knows the me that dances except my family. I wanna dance instead of "design", but... No one really gets me!! Plus, Kamm has "apparently" seen better with her friend Sara...
Sometimes I just want to yell out to the world: THAT'S NOT ME!! THIS IS ME.
Then make a list of who I really am.
Like... The one below.
• Pokémon Addict
• Love Predictor
• Sensitive
• Editor
• Doesn't Really Like Purses
• Easily Annoyed
• Tired of the Drama
• Scared to be Hurt Again
• Not What She Seems
……… I know... I'm not at all who I appeared to be. When Kenzie talked about fourth grade about Pokémon, Hartley, Nelly, and I and said it was "weird", it really... Really did hurt.
I would put some more about my outlook on W, but apparently she reads this more than anyone and it would make her feel even worse.
Please do contact me as soon as possible.
I want my carefree life back...
Missing Much,
*•The Real Me•*
"I'd rather be hated for who I am than loved for who I am not." - Kurt Cobain
Thursday, February 23, 2012
Everyday...
Dear Diary,
Remember the good ol' days when you would walk into science and Ms. Virgena would be singing the rockin' "Everyday, you bring your log book! Everday, you write in pen always!!"
*SIGH* You gotta love her...
So like this morning's post, I wonder about everyday.
Everyday is a different story. The friends you make, the right to be yourself. The betrayal, the wanting, even the romance.
Everyday, is a brand new day... To be who you want to be.
Show yourself!! Everyone has an inner personality. Show it through your outfit tomorrow. Everyday isn't a chance to dress to impress. There are days like that, but not tomorrow. Even if you don't want to dress down, I really do want to see the inner you!!
I'm not the girl I tried to be... I'm not the vain, commanding queen dying for attention. Not the cussing girl trying to be another popular.
I'm not anything like that, and I really want you to understand!! I am a geek. I love Pokémon, and always will. I could spend ten hours on my DSi, locked in my room, playing Pokémon on it. I actually have! I'm the kind of girl who secretly takes out her cards every so often, and dreams her herself to sleep, pretending she was in their world...
Tomorrow I'm just bringing out a pair of jeans, my fav shirt, and myself.
What are you gonna bring?
*•The Many Me's•*
"Embrace your awesomeness!" - Radio Rebel
Posted at: 9:25 PM
Remember the good ol' days when you would walk into science and Ms. Virgena would be singing the rockin' "Everyday, you bring your log book! Everday, you write in pen always!!"
*SIGH* You gotta love her...
So like this morning's post, I wonder about everyday.
Everyday is a different story. The friends you make, the right to be yourself. The betrayal, the wanting, even the romance.
Everyday, is a brand new day... To be who you want to be.
Show yourself!! Everyone has an inner personality. Show it through your outfit tomorrow. Everyday isn't a chance to dress to impress. There are days like that, but not tomorrow. Even if you don't want to dress down, I really do want to see the inner you!!
I'm not the girl I tried to be... I'm not the vain, commanding queen dying for attention. Not the cussing girl trying to be another popular.
I'm not anything like that, and I really want you to understand!! I am a geek. I love Pokémon, and always will. I could spend ten hours on my DSi, locked in my room, playing Pokémon on it. I actually have! I'm the kind of girl who secretly takes out her cards every so often, and dreams her herself to sleep, pretending she was in their world...
Tomorrow I'm just bringing out a pair of jeans, my fav shirt, and myself.
What are you gonna bring?
*•The Many Me's•*
"Embrace your awesomeness!" - Radio Rebel
Posted at: 9:25 PM
Time
Dear Diary,
It's 6:55 in the morning and as normal I'm writing this on my iPod. Sorry I didn't write last night; I tried watching this Criminal Minds show with my dad, but it scared me so bad and I couldn't sleep!!
Anyway, I always wonder why there IS time and who the world came up with it.
Like Ben Franklin- oops, nvm! LG doesn't like learning stuff, or she'll tune out.
Y'all contact me when someone finds out, I'm too lazy to check myself…
Going back to the topic, why do we have school in the morning? I mean, why did MMS have to add 20 EXTRA minutes of school?! That's my sleeping time!! Plus, nobody wanted it...
Why do we pray at night? God will help us with any plea or cry of help; we should pray through out the day.
Why is it that we go to the beach when the sun is the strongest and most dangerous? Ok, so even I do that, but we all are such dummies sometimes to put ourselves at risk like that!! Our body is the temple of the Lord; we need to treat it with care!!
Gotta go, love y'all!!
Wishing for the Best Time,
Miss Sleepy
"I am a friend of God, He calls me a friend!" - Phillips, Craig, and Dean
It's 6:55 in the morning and as normal I'm writing this on my iPod. Sorry I didn't write last night; I tried watching this Criminal Minds show with my dad, but it scared me so bad and I couldn't sleep!!
Anyway, I always wonder why there IS time and who the world came up with it.
Like Ben Franklin- oops, nvm! LG doesn't like learning stuff, or she'll tune out.
Y'all contact me when someone finds out, I'm too lazy to check myself…
Going back to the topic, why do we have school in the morning? I mean, why did MMS have to add 20 EXTRA minutes of school?! That's my sleeping time!! Plus, nobody wanted it...
Why do we pray at night? God will help us with any plea or cry of help; we should pray through out the day.
Why is it that we go to the beach when the sun is the strongest and most dangerous? Ok, so even I do that, but we all are such dummies sometimes to put ourselves at risk like that!! Our body is the temple of the Lord; we need to treat it with care!!
Gotta go, love y'all!!
Wishing for the Best Time,
Miss Sleepy
"I am a friend of God, He calls me a friend!" - Phillips, Craig, and Dean
Saturday, February 18, 2012
Joy
Dear Diary,
Have you ever wondered why in the world we're in this world? I constantly go back and forth in this in my mind everday... Whether in W's van... To math class.
Here's a hint: whenever I'm really quiet or staring into space, I'm thinkin' 'bout it.
I've been abandoned a lot recently and wish that my life would reverse and I could go back to where there wasn't a care in the world!!
But you have to be aware that there are reasons to stay in this time!! Ways for you to find joy in this very moment!!
See, I'll start. I love my Pokémon!! That's probably the only reason I get up on Saturdays... But after the show ends, I'm asleep again...
Then there is my friends: LG, Destiny, Perfectionist, Uncle A, and even Nel, who, when gets mad, GETS MAD!! They keep me awake during classes. (where I'd rather much be asleep...)
There is no reason for you to live in the past. My friend, Destiny, just lost a friendship she realized she didn't want in the first place!! Leisa wasn't worth it. And yet, she's more content knowing she let go; just let it be how it was gonna end anyways. Plus, she already has new friends for the joy!!
If you already haven't, please read the post, "Beautiful". It is a message to all of ya'll...
Please pray for my friendships to heal, because with every word, W and I are falling farther away.
Oh, and for LG to get better. ;))
Love ya'll,
*•The Real Me•*
"Sometimes God puts incidents in our lives in hopes you will turn to Him in your despair. What God allows in your life is always for a purpose." - Kat Baker
Actually Posted At:
9:47 AM
Have you ever wondered why in the world we're in this world? I constantly go back and forth in this in my mind everday... Whether in W's van... To math class.
Here's a hint: whenever I'm really quiet or staring into space, I'm thinkin' 'bout it.
I've been abandoned a lot recently and wish that my life would reverse and I could go back to where there wasn't a care in the world!!
But you have to be aware that there are reasons to stay in this time!! Ways for you to find joy in this very moment!!
See, I'll start. I love my Pokémon!! That's probably the only reason I get up on Saturdays... But after the show ends, I'm asleep again...
Then there is my friends: LG, Destiny, Perfectionist, Uncle A, and even Nel, who, when gets mad, GETS MAD!! They keep me awake during classes. (where I'd rather much be asleep...)
There is no reason for you to live in the past. My friend, Destiny, just lost a friendship she realized she didn't want in the first place!! Leisa wasn't worth it. And yet, she's more content knowing she let go; just let it be how it was gonna end anyways. Plus, she already has new friends for the joy!!
If you already haven't, please read the post, "Beautiful". It is a message to all of ya'll...
Please pray for my friendships to heal, because with every word, W and I are falling farther away.
Oh, and for LG to get better. ;))
Love ya'll,
*•The Real Me•*
"Sometimes God puts incidents in our lives in hopes you will turn to Him in your despair. What God allows in your life is always for a purpose." - Kat Baker
Actually Posted At:
9:47 AM
Tuesday, February 14, 2012
Rewinding Time
Dear Diary,
Hey everybody!! Some of ya'll are really slow readers (...), and the post before this is an important message for everyone. I need everyone to read it.
To the right of your computer, laptop, or iPod, there should be some sorta folder thingy that says 2012. Click or press that, and scroll down once it loads.
If you want, you can read all the posts. The times are not accurate, by the way.
Love you all, Happy Valentine's Day!!! <3
Yours,
*•The Real Me•*
"I am surrounded by angels, but I call them friends."
Hey everybody!! Some of ya'll are really slow readers (...), and the post before this is an important message for everyone. I need everyone to read it.
To the right of your computer, laptop, or iPod, there should be some sorta folder thingy that says 2012. Click or press that, and scroll down once it loads.
If you want, you can read all the posts. The times are not accurate, by the way.
Love you all, Happy Valentine's Day!!! <3
Yours,
*•The Real Me•*
"I am surrounded by angels, but I call them friends."
Monday, February 13, 2012
Beautiful
Dear Diary,
Hey everybody!! I'm back... Did you miss me? Probably not.
As promised, here's your special inside scoop at practice:
I'm in a group for the talent show and the group is called Repeat. It is made out of W, Dude, and I, and possibly Pierce and Dallas depending on what happens.
Since we aren't fully joined yet, it was just Dude, W, and I on Sunday at W's house. We had two hours to practice low and behold (I totally saw this coming) we were distracted.
The first hour contained awkward moments (not mine, W and Dude's), fishy fights, calling to be saved (that was just me to Droplet, W's sweet, lil' sis), dances alone (also just me), random conversations, belt whips, secret love, annoyance, yelling, and laziness.
After that miserable hour of W and Dude destruction (ok, maybe me a little, but I was the most serious), I threatened to leave (I could have left in the first place, my house is a bike ride away).
Apparently, that was somehow important to W and she yelled at Dude to start playing his, in i-quote, "Guitar thingy. Yeah, she's not the best in grammer...
So then we finally practiced, and I left really sad (W, if you were wondering why I got out so quickly) and as I said, a bike ride, and my heart ached leaving.
If they were gonna treat this as some sorta joke and sit there, it's not worth my time and nervousness.
If I wanted to dance, I coulda' joined the Divas but I made my desicion with W. and if she's just not gonna use it, I guess Repeat won't have a dancer...
And then there's W's email blog, and today's made me feel absolutely horrible; as if everything she types is pointed directly at me!
So then I remembered one of my favorite songs...
It is called Beautiful by Christina Aguilara and it reminds how I can't let things like that push me down, even when I am weak. The song shows how we might not be beautiful on the outside like me, but the inside is God's own marvelous creation.
When you call yourself ugly, you are calling God the same for we are made in God's image and nothing can change that, especially imperfect you.
... Remember yesterday's? How I told you to make a move? My heart now feels it is somewhat connected.
I've seen a quote that said, "You cannot change a person, but the things you do can change them."
So take a stand! Make a wave, like in that weird friends for change song!! You could be that little pebble that causes a wave bigger than the world!
Do it; I dare you.
Make a wave and remember:
You are beautiful, no matter what they say. Words can't bring you down... No... You are beautiful, in every single way... So don't let anyone, bring you down today...
I just wanted to remind you that you can make a difference! Sometimes, you just need to try!!
Thanks to the support I got, my most favorite blog is staying alive!!!!!
Oh, and LG? I did smile! Whenever I'm around you, the sun shines a little brighter and you make me feel beautiful, even when I think not!!
Popularity doesn't matter to me any more.
Which means I am free to say that I have a secret Pokémon obsession, just like 4th grade, except a ton bigger now!!
For my next b-day, Pokémon stuff, please!!
Thanks, everyone, for playing a big roll in my life! You made me, me!!
I love you all, and Happy V-Day!!! <3
Yours Forever and Ever,
*•The Real Me•*
"Sometimes you need to runaway; just to see who will follow you."
Hey everybody!! I'm back... Did you miss me? Probably not.
As promised, here's your special inside scoop at practice:
I'm in a group for the talent show and the group is called Repeat. It is made out of W, Dude, and I, and possibly Pierce and Dallas depending on what happens.
Since we aren't fully joined yet, it was just Dude, W, and I on Sunday at W's house. We had two hours to practice low and behold (I totally saw this coming) we were distracted.
The first hour contained awkward moments (not mine, W and Dude's), fishy fights, calling to be saved (that was just me to Droplet, W's sweet, lil' sis), dances alone (also just me), random conversations, belt whips, secret love, annoyance, yelling, and laziness.
After that miserable hour of W and Dude destruction (ok, maybe me a little, but I was the most serious), I threatened to leave (I could have left in the first place, my house is a bike ride away).
Apparently, that was somehow important to W and she yelled at Dude to start playing his, in i-quote, "Guitar thingy. Yeah, she's not the best in grammer...
So then we finally practiced, and I left really sad (W, if you were wondering why I got out so quickly) and as I said, a bike ride, and my heart ached leaving.
If they were gonna treat this as some sorta joke and sit there, it's not worth my time and nervousness.
If I wanted to dance, I coulda' joined the Divas but I made my desicion with W. and if she's just not gonna use it, I guess Repeat won't have a dancer...
And then there's W's email blog, and today's made me feel absolutely horrible; as if everything she types is pointed directly at me!
So then I remembered one of my favorite songs...
It is called Beautiful by Christina Aguilara and it reminds how I can't let things like that push me down, even when I am weak. The song shows how we might not be beautiful on the outside like me, but the inside is God's own marvelous creation.
When you call yourself ugly, you are calling God the same for we are made in God's image and nothing can change that, especially imperfect you.
... Remember yesterday's? How I told you to make a move? My heart now feels it is somewhat connected.
I've seen a quote that said, "You cannot change a person, but the things you do can change them."
So take a stand! Make a wave, like in that weird friends for change song!! You could be that little pebble that causes a wave bigger than the world!
Do it; I dare you.
Make a wave and remember:
You are beautiful, no matter what they say. Words can't bring you down... No... You are beautiful, in every single way... So don't let anyone, bring you down today...
I just wanted to remind you that you can make a difference! Sometimes, you just need to try!!
Thanks to the support I got, my most favorite blog is staying alive!!!!!
Oh, and LG? I did smile! Whenever I'm around you, the sun shines a little brighter and you make me feel beautiful, even when I think not!!
Popularity doesn't matter to me any more.
Which means I am free to say that I have a secret Pokémon obsession, just like 4th grade, except a ton bigger now!!
For my next b-day, Pokémon stuff, please!!
Thanks, everyone, for playing a big roll in my life! You made me, me!!
I love you all, and Happy V-Day!!! <3
Yours Forever and Ever,
*•The Real Me•*
"Sometimes you need to runaway; just to see who will follow you."
Sunday, February 12, 2012
Dare You to Move
Dear Diary,
Ok, so I admit I've already done this through email, but I honest-to-goodnessly think no one even CARED about that email. Ok, maybe dear Kat, but nobody else besides her.
Look, I'm serious here. As serious as when I feel like an outsider with Dude and W (and that's dead serious!!) Btw, speaking of W and Dude, that's tomorrow's post.
Yeah, you heard me!
Sunny's off of her vacation!!!!!
Over the weekend, I realized that I can't stay inside my shell forever. Growing is changing and everybody needs change every once in a while. Also, life just wouldn't be right without Random Ramblings there, and EVERYBODY should know that!! I'm really sorry I let ya'll down. I guess I just let my emotions get the best of me.
As you've read from LG's latest post, Random Ramble... Is going to be demolished soon...
So this is where all my friends and fellow followers take a stand!!
I dare you to move! It's your job to make sure that doesn't happen! Comment and email! It needs to be done, and someone needs to do it.
This is something that needs to be done everday. From a simple compliment, to a long validation you could make someone's day just like that.
Please do what's needed and do it now!!!
Do it for me.
Yours,
*•The Secret Source•*
"Just do it."
Ok, so I admit I've already done this through email, but I honest-to-goodnessly think no one even CARED about that email. Ok, maybe dear Kat, but nobody else besides her.
Look, I'm serious here. As serious as when I feel like an outsider with Dude and W (and that's dead serious!!) Btw, speaking of W and Dude, that's tomorrow's post.
Yeah, you heard me!
Sunny's off of her vacation!!!!!
Over the weekend, I realized that I can't stay inside my shell forever. Growing is changing and everybody needs change every once in a while. Also, life just wouldn't be right without Random Ramblings there, and EVERYBODY should know that!! I'm really sorry I let ya'll down. I guess I just let my emotions get the best of me.
As you've read from LG's latest post, Random Ramble... Is going to be demolished soon...
So this is where all my friends and fellow followers take a stand!!
I dare you to move! It's your job to make sure that doesn't happen! Comment and email! It needs to be done, and someone needs to do it.
This is something that needs to be done everday. From a simple compliment, to a long validation you could make someone's day just like that.
Please do what's needed and do it now!!!
Do it for me.
Yours,
*•The Secret Source•*
"Just do it."
Wednesday, February 8, 2012
Why?
Dear Diary,
I have no excuse. I'm only writing this post, because the one reason I created this blog was for my own personal outlet. Mostly emotional because with the friends I have, there's ALWAYS drama.
For about an hour, I've been sitting in my room with the lights off, door locked, music playing, and me crying in my pillow. Hard.
I'm sick and tired of all my friend drama!!!!!
Sometimes I wonder if I even have those people as friends!!!!
The friends that I'm really loyal to are Hail, Perfectionist, and Uncle A. Sometimes I include LG and Nel, but sometimes I just can't. They just don't take me seriously, and probbably never will when they're in their happy, random ice cream/puppy dog mood.
And sometimes I have all these why questions that I need solved. Here comes my emotional stuff...
Why can't I be popular?
Why can't my friends go one hundred years without drama?
Why can't the world be absolutely perfect?
Why do my friends hurt me and scar me deep?
Why are Nel and LG random?
Why do I like the person I like?
Why did I have to be born?
Why am I where I am?
Why did W tell me last? Does she not trust me enough as much as she does Amy?
Why can't I be perfect?
Why am I crying?
Why can't I have a love life like W?
Why am I not pretty?
Why can't I be the geek I am at home at school?
Why does Playa hate me?
Why is Ann annoying?
Why do my parents yell at me?
Why at times does it seem that the only things that love me are God and my dog?
Why are boys so strange?
Why is my life so hard?
Why can't I be normal?
- - -
So you get my point. I promise you I'm crying right now, and hating my life...
Why, why, why?
... I... I'm actually taking a break from my online diary... A long break...
I'm sorry... I hope you can forgive me when I come back, if I ever do...
Good bye the people who even care to read my life.
Why, why, why,
*•The Secret Source•*
"Why?"
Actually Posted At:
7:18 PM on Wednesday, February 8, 2012
I have no excuse. I'm only writing this post, because the one reason I created this blog was for my own personal outlet. Mostly emotional because with the friends I have, there's ALWAYS drama.
For about an hour, I've been sitting in my room with the lights off, door locked, music playing, and me crying in my pillow. Hard.
I'm sick and tired of all my friend drama!!!!!
Sometimes I wonder if I even have those people as friends!!!!
The friends that I'm really loyal to are Hail, Perfectionist, and Uncle A. Sometimes I include LG and Nel, but sometimes I just can't. They just don't take me seriously, and probbably never will when they're in their happy, random ice cream/puppy dog mood.
And sometimes I have all these why questions that I need solved. Here comes my emotional stuff...
Why can't I be popular?
Why can't my friends go one hundred years without drama?
Why can't the world be absolutely perfect?
Why do my friends hurt me and scar me deep?
Why are Nel and LG random?
Why do I like the person I like?
Why did I have to be born?
Why am I where I am?
Why did W tell me last? Does she not trust me enough as much as she does Amy?
Why can't I be perfect?
Why am I crying?
Why can't I have a love life like W?
Why am I not pretty?
Why can't I be the geek I am at home at school?
Why does Playa hate me?
Why is Ann annoying?
Why do my parents yell at me?
Why at times does it seem that the only things that love me are God and my dog?
Why are boys so strange?
Why is my life so hard?
Why can't I be normal?
- - -
So you get my point. I promise you I'm crying right now, and hating my life...
Why, why, why?
... I... I'm actually taking a break from my online diary... A long break...
I'm sorry... I hope you can forgive me when I come back, if I ever do...
Good bye the people who even care to read my life.
Why, why, why,
*•The Secret Source•*
"Why?"
Actually Posted At:
7:18 PM on Wednesday, February 8, 2012
Thursday, February 2, 2012
Nervousness...
Dear Diary,
Nervousness... Nervousness...
*bites nails*
Umm... Explanation? The MMS (my middle school) Talent Show Auditions is already a few days away, and I'm TOTALLY FREAKING OUT!!!!!
W and I are singing to an awesome song called Live Like There's No Tomorrow.
Check it out!
It's an awesome song and all that, but how the heck am I supposed to sing in front of hundreds of people?!?!?!
I can barely Stand up the courage to sing for auditions!!!
Please help me!
Nervousness... Nervousness...
To be continued... Where hopefully I'll still have my nails...
*•The Secret Source•*
"Nervousness..."
Nervousness... Nervousness...
*bites nails*
Umm... Explanation? The MMS (my middle school) Talent Show Auditions is already a few days away, and I'm TOTALLY FREAKING OUT!!!!!
W and I are singing to an awesome song called Live Like There's No Tomorrow.
Check it out!
It's an awesome song and all that, but how the heck am I supposed to sing in front of hundreds of people?!?!?!
I can barely Stand up the courage to sing for auditions!!!
Please help me!
Nervousness... Nervousness...
To be continued... Where hopefully I'll still have my nails...
*•The Secret Source•*
"Nervousness..."
Wednesday, February 1, 2012
"Add Your Name Here"-Itis
Dear Diary,
Today was a half day since it was the first of the month, as ya'll should know.
Today we had Schedule B so we had our last eh, 4 periods? So that means we had art!!!
Art is our last class (Perfectionist, Hail, Nel, LG, and I, I mean). As normal, Nel is painting on someone, Hail is WAY ahead, LG is talkin' bout something with Perfectionist, Perfectionist is laughing her guts out, and I'm sitting with Nel trying to catch up.
One day we were working on a ton of value (pretty much shading) and the way Perfectionist holds her pencil, she got a bunch of smeared pencil lead on that one side of her right hand for like, however long she was doing that project.
Nel, LG, and I (not Hail, like I said she barely talks) started calling it a horrible disease known as "Perfectionist-itis". And it stuck like that.
Two, three projects later, we had to use paint for a project needing black, white, the rainbow, and any colors in between. The first phase was the black and white, and the second was the rainbow colors.
So anyway, apparently Perfectionist said she hated the color pink, and Nel was in her "I'm exited enough to do stuff to you" mood and she was on phase two. I just happened to be on phase one, and Nel stole some white from my paint tray, mixing it with some of her red.
Voila! Pink.
Guess what happened next?
Yeh, Nel started painting Perfectionist.
Alas, the day the disease "Nellie-itis" was discovered!
Yeah. And that's a normal day in art!!
So whatever you seem to do, accident or on purpose, creates some sort of disease-itis.
*sigh* I love my friends.
Until the next art class,
*•The Secret Source•*
"Nel, stop painting me!!"
Actually Posted at 7:31 PM
Today was a half day since it was the first of the month, as ya'll should know.
Today we had Schedule B so we had our last eh, 4 periods? So that means we had art!!!
Art is our last class (Perfectionist, Hail, Nel, LG, and I, I mean). As normal, Nel is painting on someone, Hail is WAY ahead, LG is talkin' bout something with Perfectionist, Perfectionist is laughing her guts out, and I'm sitting with Nel trying to catch up.
One day we were working on a ton of value (pretty much shading) and the way Perfectionist holds her pencil, she got a bunch of smeared pencil lead on that one side of her right hand for like, however long she was doing that project.
Nel, LG, and I (not Hail, like I said she barely talks) started calling it a horrible disease known as "Perfectionist-itis". And it stuck like that.
Two, three projects later, we had to use paint for a project needing black, white, the rainbow, and any colors in between. The first phase was the black and white, and the second was the rainbow colors.
So anyway, apparently Perfectionist said she hated the color pink, and Nel was in her "I'm exited enough to do stuff to you" mood and she was on phase two. I just happened to be on phase one, and Nel stole some white from my paint tray, mixing it with some of her red.
Voila! Pink.
Guess what happened next?
Yeh, Nel started painting Perfectionist.
Alas, the day the disease "Nellie-itis" was discovered!
Yeah. And that's a normal day in art!!
So whatever you seem to do, accident or on purpose, creates some sort of disease-itis.
*sigh* I love my friends.
Until the next art class,
*•The Secret Source•*
"Nel, stop painting me!!"
Actually Posted at 7:31 PM
Sunday, January 29, 2012
LG
Dear Diary,
Hey. I miss LG and her amazing, out of control posts. Anyone else with me?
I mean, I'm not mad or anything, but I miss waiting for her crazy posts to appear a few minutes after mine...
The Austin & Ally's remind of her, too. I was gonna watch the new one tonight, but we got home late from a Bible study, and mum wouldn't let me. I bet'cha she watched it AND loved it!! I wish I know what happened...
Who knows where our beloved LG went...
This incredibly short post is dedicated to LG, who I hope reads this and assures me she didn't die and didn't get wiped off the face of the earth.
(Hey! Her words not mine!!)
See ya'll tomorrow before first period!
She who doesn't want to go to school tomorrow,
*•The Secret Source•*
"Missing LG..."
Actually posted at: 9:08 PM
Hey. I miss LG and her amazing, out of control posts. Anyone else with me?
I mean, I'm not mad or anything, but I miss waiting for her crazy posts to appear a few minutes after mine...
The Austin & Ally's remind of her, too. I was gonna watch the new one tonight, but we got home late from a Bible study, and mum wouldn't let me. I bet'cha she watched it AND loved it!! I wish I know what happened...
Who knows where our beloved LG went...
This incredibly short post is dedicated to LG, who I hope reads this and assures me she didn't die and didn't get wiped off the face of the earth.
(Hey! Her words not mine!!)
See ya'll tomorrow before first period!
She who doesn't want to go to school tomorrow,
*•The Secret Source•*
"Missing LG..."
Actually posted at: 9:08 PM
Saturday, January 28, 2012
Book Reports, Crushes, and Sighs of Relief
Dear Diary,
Yeah. Title sorta gives out today's talkabout. Btw, is that even a word?
First of all, book reports. Who remembers back in ol' second grade where we did our cereal box project? At least I think that was second grade. Coulda' been third.
Anyway, that's what Ann spent the whole day doing. She's one uh those last minute people. It's due Tuesday (W & I's Friendiversary) and we got bible study tomorrow.
So then there's the process of writing a rough draft, making a final one, then drawing the dang picture. Who remembers that?
(I!!)
It was like, 12 pm, and I just woke up. (who also does this??) Mom made me get out of bed for one reason:
To proofread Ann's paper.
Ugh, ikr!! Just because I'm in English Honors, doesn't mean I have to do English-honor-y stuff at home!!!
Then, like, two hours later, she made me get off my iPod and help her with the drawing!!! And here's the thing,
She didn't even draw it!! Mom and I drew it for her then she colored it in!!
*sighs* Atleast I get allowance for helping...
Oh! So remember how LG mentiined she's in my actual diary?
She is.
And, I got something else to admit...
I kinda sorta maybe have a teensy wittle tiny (why am I talking like this?) crush on someone.
*cue 500 gasps here*
Yeh, ikr.
LG (in diary form) learned today and started panicking. I actually wrote it pretty funny today, so if I ever tell you, (which I really doubt) I'll have to write a post on what the diary said... LG in diary form is half surprised half mad at me...
I can see why, since I kept stalling for like, ev!!!
Lastly, we got a sigh of relief.
*sighs in relief*
You better believe it.
Today my mom found out I had a blog. It was actually pretty obvious since I kept dropping huge hints so I wouldn't get in trouble, but she did find out. And my sigh told you something:
... She wasn't mad!!!
Although I got the normal parent conversation of you know, the "don't post pics or say your real name" and stuff like that.
I'm actually pretty happy now that she knows.
(I'm alot happier that she said she wasn't gonna read it. She'd freak out at the things I say on here)
Well, it's getting late and I'm tired although my 12 pm sleep.
See ya'll tomorrow (LG, I'm expecting a post!!!!),
*•The Secret Source•*
"Hey! No saying ANYTHING about crushes unless you know me really well (Perfectionist and Uncle A)!!!
Actually Posted at: 10:42 PM
Yeah. Title sorta gives out today's talkabout. Btw, is that even a word?
First of all, book reports. Who remembers back in ol' second grade where we did our cereal box project? At least I think that was second grade. Coulda' been third.
Anyway, that's what Ann spent the whole day doing. She's one uh those last minute people. It's due Tuesday (W & I's Friendiversary) and we got bible study tomorrow.
So then there's the process of writing a rough draft, making a final one, then drawing the dang picture. Who remembers that?
(I!!)
It was like, 12 pm, and I just woke up. (who also does this??) Mom made me get out of bed for one reason:
To proofread Ann's paper.
Ugh, ikr!! Just because I'm in English Honors, doesn't mean I have to do English-honor-y stuff at home!!!
Then, like, two hours later, she made me get off my iPod and help her with the drawing!!! And here's the thing,
She didn't even draw it!! Mom and I drew it for her then she colored it in!!
*sighs* Atleast I get allowance for helping...
Oh! So remember how LG mentiined she's in my actual diary?
She is.
And, I got something else to admit...
I kinda sorta maybe have a teensy wittle tiny (why am I talking like this?) crush on someone.
*cue 500 gasps here*
Yeh, ikr.
LG (in diary form) learned today and started panicking. I actually wrote it pretty funny today, so if I ever tell you, (which I really doubt) I'll have to write a post on what the diary said... LG in diary form is half surprised half mad at me...
I can see why, since I kept stalling for like, ev!!!
Lastly, we got a sigh of relief.
*sighs in relief*
You better believe it.
Today my mom found out I had a blog. It was actually pretty obvious since I kept dropping huge hints so I wouldn't get in trouble, but she did find out. And my sigh told you something:
... She wasn't mad!!!
Although I got the normal parent conversation of you know, the "don't post pics or say your real name" and stuff like that.
I'm actually pretty happy now that she knows.
(I'm alot happier that she said she wasn't gonna read it. She'd freak out at the things I say on here)
Well, it's getting late and I'm tired although my 12 pm sleep.
See ya'll tomorrow (LG, I'm expecting a post!!!!),
*•The Secret Source•*
"Hey! No saying ANYTHING about crushes unless you know me really well (Perfectionist and Uncle A)!!!
Actually Posted at: 10:42 PM
Friday, January 27, 2012
Dear Diary,
Sorry I missed yesterday!! Middle school ALWAYS makes me tired.
I guess that's what weekends are for...
Today was an interesting day... Sorta sad for me...
W Update: 4 Days Until our Friendiversary. Still with Ames and Kat, she talked to me like, 6 times today!! To clarify, when we were the "best of friends," we'd talk like, 100 or more. Farther each day...
But each day, I'm always closer to V Perfectionist and Hail. Those are the top two right now plus D, who I haven't talked about yet.
Btw, does anyone know any cheap vintage clothing store besides Goodwill??? Email is good contact!!
Back to being behind in art (thanks alot, Perfectionist!!!!!), but poor LG is farther. We'll have to help her.
Oh, and is anyone else SUPER confused about the vid posted on Random Ramble?
(Say "I!!!")
My eyes are a bit red abd puffy from today's laughing and crying, but I'll be k...
Good nite, ya'll,
*•The Secret Soure•*
"Shhh!!!"
Sorry I missed yesterday!! Middle school ALWAYS makes me tired.
I guess that's what weekends are for...
Today was an interesting day... Sorta sad for me...
W Update: 4 Days Until our Friendiversary. Still with Ames and Kat, she talked to me like, 6 times today!! To clarify, when we were the "best of friends," we'd talk like, 100 or more. Farther each day...
But each day, I'm always closer to V Perfectionist and Hail. Those are the top two right now plus D, who I haven't talked about yet.
Btw, does anyone know any cheap vintage clothing store besides Goodwill??? Email is good contact!!
Back to being behind in art (thanks alot, Perfectionist!!!!!), but poor LG is farther. We'll have to help her.
Oh, and is anyone else SUPER confused about the vid posted on Random Ramble?
(Say "I!!!")
My eyes are a bit red abd puffy from today's laughing and crying, but I'll be k...
Good nite, ya'll,
*•The Secret Soure•*
"Shhh!!!"
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
Grumpy Ann
Dear Diary,
Today's Wednesday, right? It feels like Monday. And when I think it's Monday, NOTHING goes right!!
Luckily, LG is back at school and feeling a little better. Although I'm probably sicker than her... I'm hoping to see a post tonight... If not, she was wiped off the face of the earth at 5:30!!!!!
Atleast that's what she told me! Go figure.
Today wasn't much dif with W... She's still with Ames...
Um... I guess I could officially say Nel has something up her sleeve. And when Ames and Kenz hear about it, they're gonna go all detective-y again like they did with me when Ames saw me drawing in Math.
... That was sorta weird...
And NOW I gotta worry about some "Got Talent" thing at school. I barely have enough courage to do stuff in front of my family, let alone the whole middle school! Kenz has an idea, but I'm honestly not sure...
I mean, the idea's awesome, but I'm not... (remember the health triangle? The lowest for me is mental...)
Plus, what if other people do dancing too? It's not called competition for a reason! I'm already scared to death, and we don't even know if we're doing it yet!!
I'm probably gonna be like Playa and hyperventilate...
And then there's my sister...
My little sis is one of those people who when they get tired, they get cranky.
And I mean REALLY cranky. We were at Publix and we got those free cookies. When Ann was dine eating her's, she kept poking me for some of mine.
When I wouldn't give some to her, she started whing to her mommy and was all like, " The Secret Source is being a meanie and won't give me any of her cookie!!!"
I gave her a look and said I'd eat it later.
And she said, "But then it'll get all hard and no one can eat it!!! You're not smart!!"
I almost smacked her. She smart-mouths me all the time, and it's SOOOO annoying!
Then, she got all whiny how she was cold and hungry!!
When we were checking out, she kept moving the cart back and forth and giving me dirty looks.
And she went to sleep like a baby and woke up like nothing was wrong!!!!
I started calling her Grumpy Ann.
So...
I have a mixture of sadness, stage fright, anger, happiness, and confusion...
Oh! And I'm tired!
...... Nite nite!!!
Zzzzz,
*•The Secret Source•*
"Shhh!!! I'm tired!!"
Today's Wednesday, right? It feels like Monday. And when I think it's Monday, NOTHING goes right!!
Luckily, LG is back at school and feeling a little better. Although I'm probably sicker than her... I'm hoping to see a post tonight... If not, she was wiped off the face of the earth at 5:30!!!!!
Atleast that's what she told me! Go figure.
Today wasn't much dif with W... She's still with Ames...
Um... I guess I could officially say Nel has something up her sleeve. And when Ames and Kenz hear about it, they're gonna go all detective-y again like they did with me when Ames saw me drawing in Math.
... That was sorta weird...
And NOW I gotta worry about some "Got Talent" thing at school. I barely have enough courage to do stuff in front of my family, let alone the whole middle school! Kenz has an idea, but I'm honestly not sure...
I mean, the idea's awesome, but I'm not... (remember the health triangle? The lowest for me is mental...)
Plus, what if other people do dancing too? It's not called competition for a reason! I'm already scared to death, and we don't even know if we're doing it yet!!
I'm probably gonna be like Playa and hyperventilate...
And then there's my sister...
My little sis is one of those people who when they get tired, they get cranky.
And I mean REALLY cranky. We were at Publix and we got those free cookies. When Ann was dine eating her's, she kept poking me for some of mine.
When I wouldn't give some to her, she started whing to her mommy and was all like, " The Secret Source is being a meanie and won't give me any of her cookie!!!"
I gave her a look and said I'd eat it later.
And she said, "But then it'll get all hard and no one can eat it!!! You're not smart!!"
I almost smacked her. She smart-mouths me all the time, and it's SOOOO annoying!
Then, she got all whiny how she was cold and hungry!!
When we were checking out, she kept moving the cart back and forth and giving me dirty looks.
And she went to sleep like a baby and woke up like nothing was wrong!!!!
I started calling her Grumpy Ann.
So...
I have a mixture of sadness, stage fright, anger, happiness, and confusion...
Oh! And I'm tired!
...... Nite nite!!!
Zzzzz,
*•The Secret Source•*
"Shhh!!! I'm tired!!"
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
Hot 'n Cold
Dear Diary,
Today I had my up and downs like every normal day... It kinda reminds me of the song Hot 'n Cold by Katy Perry!! Here's my explanation:
Hot: Early to school and chatting with friends
Cold: LG not being here 'cuz she's sick :(((
Yes: No taco from Pierce today!!!
No: Ugh, 30 flashcards? You gotta be kidding me!!
In: Ha! First to get the oreo from Perfectionist!
Out: Playa throws more nasty comments...
Wrong: Still behind in art...
Right: V Perfectionist has a new name: A Perfectionist!!!
Black: Left iPod touch at McDonald's, got in trouble. not allowed to bring iPod to school!!!!
White: W knows 'bout Friendiversary!!!
(I just hope I sidn't offend her or anything)
So that was my day!! Now do you see why I thought of that song?
If your new to my blog, go to the right where it says archive, and press or click 2012 then scroll ALLLL the way down to the first post and learn how it all started!!
Until next time,
*cues Hot 'n Cold music and starts dancing*
*•The Secret Source•*
"Dance!!"
Actually Posted at 7:40 PM
Today I had my up and downs like every normal day... It kinda reminds me of the song Hot 'n Cold by Katy Perry!! Here's my explanation:
Hot: Early to school and chatting with friends
Cold: LG not being here 'cuz she's sick :(((
Yes: No taco from Pierce today!!!
No: Ugh, 30 flashcards? You gotta be kidding me!!
In: Ha! First to get the oreo from Perfectionist!
Out: Playa throws more nasty comments...
Wrong: Still behind in art...
Right: V Perfectionist has a new name: A Perfectionist!!!
Black: Left iPod touch at McDonald's, got in trouble. not allowed to bring iPod to school!!!!
White: W knows 'bout Friendiversary!!!
(I just hope I sidn't offend her or anything)
So that was my day!! Now do you see why I thought of that song?
If your new to my blog, go to the right where it says archive, and press or click 2012 then scroll ALLLL the way down to the first post and learn how it all started!!
Until next time,
*cues Hot 'n Cold music and starts dancing*
*•The Secret Source•*
"Dance!!"
Actually Posted at 7:40 PM
Monday, January 23, 2012
Farther and Farther Away...
Dear Diary,
Sometimes I think I have an on/off bf. I mean, I can't add the last f because it means forever and I just said on and off.
In real life, I wuz just talking really fast so I'm glad this is being typed...
"Artwork" is still echoing, and everyday seems as if we're getting farther away...
W and I, I mean.
Today I barely talked to her. Just V Perfectionist, LG, and lil' quiet Hail.
Hail barely ever speaks and I think she talks to me more than W does!!
What really hits me hard, though, is that our made-up (I say that because we don't know the official date) Best Friendiversary is coming up on the 31st and I'm not even sure if W knows about it or even thought about it!!!!!
I try hard not to be selfish with W with other people (besides Dude with that I don't care) but when I don't be, I'm like invisible and W's always with Amester or Kat!!
It hurts like betrayal, and boy, do I know what that feels like!! This is probably worst!
I'm livin' out second grade all over again... Except this one isn't interfering with my love life, that is...
I would tell W personally, but I know for a fact that I would cry if I do!! And I'm already low standards in my grade... Possibly the whole school, too...
Don't feel sorry for me, or embarressed of why you are reading something personal.
I mean, it's not like life could get any worse than it already is...
Although I have to admit I have five other awesome besties who would always be there for me, but they don't live in my neighborhood...
Crying in My Pillow Again,
*•The Secret Source•*
"Who's tired of the drama..."
Sometimes I think I have an on/off bf. I mean, I can't add the last f because it means forever and I just said on and off.
In real life, I wuz just talking really fast so I'm glad this is being typed...
"Artwork" is still echoing, and everyday seems as if we're getting farther away...
W and I, I mean.
Today I barely talked to her. Just V Perfectionist, LG, and lil' quiet Hail.
Hail barely ever speaks and I think she talks to me more than W does!!
What really hits me hard, though, is that our made-up (I say that because we don't know the official date) Best Friendiversary is coming up on the 31st and I'm not even sure if W knows about it or even thought about it!!!!!
I try hard not to be selfish with W with other people (besides Dude with that I don't care) but when I don't be, I'm like invisible and W's always with Amester or Kat!!
It hurts like betrayal, and boy, do I know what that feels like!! This is probably worst!
I'm livin' out second grade all over again... Except this one isn't interfering with my love life, that is...
I would tell W personally, but I know for a fact that I would cry if I do!! And I'm already low standards in my grade... Possibly the whole school, too...
Don't feel sorry for me, or embarressed of why you are reading something personal.
I mean, it's not like life could get any worse than it already is...
Although I have to admit I have five other awesome besties who would always be there for me, but they don't live in my neighborhood...
Crying in My Pillow Again,
*•The Secret Source•*
"Who's tired of the drama..."
Sunday, January 22, 2012
Life or Death
Dear Diary,
Today I'm gonna write responses to everyone since I didn't have much of an exiting day...
First, LG, you probably didn't give me much sicknesses mostly because I have a cold, not a fever. And... I guess that's it...
Secondly, The Writing Club by Ames sounds SO much cooler than sitting around for an hour and a half of waiting for my sister to finish dance. Dunno how we're gonna do it though...
Thirdly, PEOPLE!!! WHEN EMAILING A GROUP OF PEOPLE, USE REPLY ALL!!!!
Lastly, for me, this blog probably won't last... :((((
My parents are super overprotective, and I haven't told them about Dear Diary.com. They'll probably freak and tell me to stop making posts and stuff. Although they were pretty ok with when I had a website, but who knows now that I'm older!!! I was only in 4th grade when I did my first website!!! This website will either live or die...
It's a life or death situation!!!!!!!!!!!
Sorry, I've always wanted to say that!
Well, I'm obviously bored so I'm gonna gonna play with some random apps.
Pray for me that my parents may be ok with it or not find out at all... Not sure what to do!!
Hate to Go Back to School Tomorrow,
*•The Secret Source•*
"Shh!!!!"
Today I'm gonna write responses to everyone since I didn't have much of an exiting day...
First, LG, you probably didn't give me much sicknesses mostly because I have a cold, not a fever. And... I guess that's it...
Secondly, The Writing Club by Ames sounds SO much cooler than sitting around for an hour and a half of waiting for my sister to finish dance. Dunno how we're gonna do it though...
Thirdly, PEOPLE!!! WHEN EMAILING A GROUP OF PEOPLE, USE REPLY ALL!!!!
Lastly, for me, this blog probably won't last... :((((
My parents are super overprotective, and I haven't told them about Dear Diary.com. They'll probably freak and tell me to stop making posts and stuff. Although they were pretty ok with when I had a website, but who knows now that I'm older!!! I was only in 4th grade when I did my first website!!! This website will either live or die...
It's a life or death situation!!!!!!!!!!!
Sorry, I've always wanted to say that!
Well, I'm obviously bored so I'm gonna gonna play with some random apps.
Pray for me that my parents may be ok with it or not find out at all... Not sure what to do!!
Hate to Go Back to School Tomorrow,
*•The Secret Source•*
"Shh!!!!"
Saturday, January 21, 2012
Sicknesses, Friend Fusses, and dead lizards
Dear Diary,
Today I woke up and learned I got sick. Probably a collection and mixture of my friends'. My nose is super stuffy, I keep coughing, and I have a sore throat... It really stinks.
And then I still have this weird feeling on my hand...
So I was going through the junk we have at home for this organization called Jump 'n Jax where you bring stuff that you don't want and you bring it to this place where other people can buy it if they want. Its sorta like Goodwill, but more expensive and you get your stuff back if no one buys it.
Anyways, I was going through this huge cardboard box with a bunch a tossed stuff in it that was in the den/exercise room/library. I finally got to the bottom of it, and I wasn't really looking at it much. And then I pulled out something that I had no idea what it was. It was a skeleton of a dead lizard!!!
I repeat: A DEAD LIZARD SKELETON!!!!!!!!!
So I did what a normal person would do. I screamed and threw it across the room. Normal, right?
It was gross, and I kept panicking for like, three hours. It was GROSS!!
Save me.
But luckily, after yesterday's incident with Kat and W, I got to spend about an hour with W. I guess it's k, but that's what I thought last time when she was with Amester... "Artwork" is still echoing in my ears...
Sometimes I wonder if I'm like that to V Perfectionist. I gotta be more careful about that...
Speaking of being careful, LG you better watch what you say, woman!!!!! Jeez, my head hurts from yelling today...
I need rest!!! Too many thoughts hurt my brain.
Catcha' lata,
*•The Secret Source•*
"Shhh!!!"
Today I woke up and learned I got sick. Probably a collection and mixture of my friends'. My nose is super stuffy, I keep coughing, and I have a sore throat... It really stinks.
And then I still have this weird feeling on my hand...
So I was going through the junk we have at home for this organization called Jump 'n Jax where you bring stuff that you don't want and you bring it to this place where other people can buy it if they want. Its sorta like Goodwill, but more expensive and you get your stuff back if no one buys it.
Anyways, I was going through this huge cardboard box with a bunch a tossed stuff in it that was in the den/exercise room/library. I finally got to the bottom of it, and I wasn't really looking at it much. And then I pulled out something that I had no idea what it was. It was a skeleton of a dead lizard!!!
I repeat: A DEAD LIZARD SKELETON!!!!!!!!!
So I did what a normal person would do. I screamed and threw it across the room. Normal, right?
It was gross, and I kept panicking for like, three hours. It was GROSS!!
Save me.
But luckily, after yesterday's incident with Kat and W, I got to spend about an hour with W. I guess it's k, but that's what I thought last time when she was with Amester... "Artwork" is still echoing in my ears...
Sometimes I wonder if I'm like that to V Perfectionist. I gotta be more careful about that...
Speaking of being careful, LG you better watch what you say, woman!!!!! Jeez, my head hurts from yelling today...
I need rest!!! Too many thoughts hurt my brain.
Catcha' lata,
*•The Secret Source•*
"Shhh!!!"
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